::someone just sabotaged me::

2010-11-11T23:31:00.000+08:00

loooooooooooooooooooool it's been years =\
this blog is dead!

o levels is coming to an end.. FINALLY.
can't wait for prom ^^v

aha. nothing to type already. CIAO.

HAHA MY BLOG IS NOT DEAD ANYMORE! ^^

2008-01-28T16:22:00.001+08:00

HELLO FELLOW.. HUMANS xD

haha. i decided to blog since.. it's been dead since. sept last year i just realised.. haha. okay for those of you who don't know, i'm currently class rep of 2PE. don't ask why i'm in PE again but i am. xD

and last friday had a .. half class party at my house. half cuz only half of the ppl turned up. but anyways. i had fun. hope you guys did too xD and remember to send me the pictures k?

hmm. and... im starting to like my class more. lol. AND EVERYONE REMEMBER TO HAND UP YOUR TRAVEL DECLARATION FORM BY TOMORROW. hmm. and homework... and art. ohh i almost forgot. i've got 3 pieces of art work to finish. and i forgot to being jean yeoh's work on sunday. and sunday was a blast xD

sam and jean both came. and nat and ning zhen and i and 2 of them were all crapping throughout the lesson. we didn't do any work and the teacher was like "they're here to talk not do work" lol. haha. i think he's kinda pissed though. but oh well. its once in a while only la.

oh and i'm still in bowling. and charlene ho is the current sec2 captain. deborah is the vice captain. and they're on probation still though. and the person who i think would be going to the b divs would be.. joanna feng lol. anywayy. i'm kinda enjoying life. i'm always so free ^^ well sort of. haha.

and my brother is away on camp. so no brother for 3 days 2 nights. and talking about camps. end of feb there is adventure camp! and i heard from seniors its fun and dirty. haha. and mr teo said we should enjoy it. hmm i dont trust him. HAHAHA. xP

i'm listening to cant help but wait. it's such a nice song. heh. and today lama asked me to write lyrics for her. oh yeaahhh. lama is alanna. haha. and i cant wait for chinese new year to be over. then i get to change seats. it's getting kinda boring to sit in the same place all the time. and andrea ong keeps switching places with me during science in the lab. and she says she wants to change permanently. well its good that i get to sit with different people for a change but i sat in the previous seat for barely 5 lessons!! and its easier for me to see the things on the slides but i dont get to hide things i'm doing from the teacher. heh. i'm a bad class rep :D

haha okay then. i will post more often now. don't complain the blog is dead. and i will change my blogskin when i have the time. ^^ byebye people! xD

2007-09-08T12:40:00.000+08:00

i dont feel like blogging and u cant blame me. i feel lazy. its the holidays anyway.

okay. brief summary. um...

monday stayed at home and went to watch secret with my mum and bro in cine at night. went to that wtv shop and bought jean and sherine pictures of their wtv wtv ppl~ lol. then went to sch on tues and the stupid teacher came late and made us stay back. whatever lah. then aft that went home and did nothing. then weds stayed at home.. thurs had bowling. then stayed at home aft gg for haircut. gahs. then friday went to sch again. stupid lah. i duwanna act alr. so dumb. ugh. ppl like sherine and jean and natassia and amanda and wtv lah. they can just sit there and slack can.. fann keeps playing with my phone... and every night, i sleep between 2 - 6am and wake up at like before 12 lahs. so tiring. my bro keeps forcing me to watch tv with him.

and i need to complain abt this bunch of ppl, though they don't really say know each other. well not all of them know each other lah. but yeah. they keep asking me to watch dramas. then lehs. gt a few others keep sending me songs which i dont listen to. [basically its just korean] and i dont listen to it and still say "MUST PUT INTO YOUR IPOD AH, OR AT LEAST INTO SOMEWHERE AND MAKE SURE YOU LISTEN TO IT". omg lah. trying to get me addicted isit... since the day sherine ask me to watch gokusen2 until today. i haven't been listening to music as often and according to jay's dad in secret "不听音乐的人很坏” lols. no lah. i just listen abit jap here, a bit italian there, a little chinese and english. but i'll still stick to my stand and not listen to korean unless that SOMEONE seriously forces me to~ lol. and unfortunately, as my ipod is usually on shuffle.... yeah u get the picture =S

hm. no piano today, didn't have guitar, no art this sun. yeah. so bored. anw. i dont think i'll be posting much. too lazy~ cant blame me!

2007-09-02T17:35:00.000+08:00

HELLO!

u know what.

i had fun today.

as in

LITERAL FUN. LOL. you know. jean has special red hair. LOL

sam has a hole in her hair.

ning zhen didn't allow me to play around tho. lol.

nat had netball thingy thing thing.

so anyway.

i had fun. yeah. like. it was so funny. and. jean's legs are heavier than elisa. wth lah jean. ur stupid legs. -.-

so. painted hands, painted HAIR. lol. and i didn't finish my work =S

so anw nxt week no lesson lahs. and i'm free for the week but but.. but... i dont wanna go out lahs. but then. i need to get sarah's dog asap. and i think i'll get yc a present too.. lol. and i desperately need more cds -.-"

crap that aos. make me wake up. stupid lah. -.- and this ruijia left her bottle in sch so i have to return to her on tues during aos. gah.

okay i cant rmb anything i wanna say alr~ gah.

ohhh yeah it was sam's last lesson today =/ im gg to miss ya ;DDD

and ah.. i dunno lah.. lol

2007-09-01T17:27:00.000+08:00

BORED BORED BORED BORED.

i'm bored like crazy and i've been bored the whole day~

ytd rachel yeo, rachel thng, sarah, shanice, corine, hiumun, siong woon, siok ling and olivia came to my house. man it was so screwed lahs~ haha.

then in sch ytd had fun shouting and screaming during the concert lah. so funny.

then today is yuching's bday. and as well as teachers day. tmr is michelle lew's bday.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YUCHING!

HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MICHELLE LEW [tmr]!

okay so that aside. rachel thng kept playing canon in c yesterday cuz she doesn't know how to play in d. lol. FANN U CAN REMEMBER PACHEBEL'S RANT?! XDD

yeah. and ytd till today have been bugging jean and telling her how much i wanna transfer sch lol. and on thurs night talked on the phone with nat saw until like what. 1.30 in the morning or something. for 2 hours i think. then ahs. i dunno lah. so many things happened.

haiz.

so bored.

i miss rgps.

i miss 6h'06..

at the same time..

i hate rgps

i hate 6h'06

...

but then again. LOL.

aiya. i just wanna get into sec2 and transfer out. got that?
udidn'thavetoasksomuchtoshowoff
well. what should i do now? i'm so bored. haiz. kays. i think i'll stop.
ureallyirritatemesometimes.

2007-08-29T18:42:00.000+08:00

heh. HAPPY BIRTHDAY SAUSAGE & LITTLE MONSTER! xDD

okay lah. today was fun. i mean i felt happy for the whole day. haha.

then carolyn, ruijia, janice, genevieve, shen nen, fann and some ppl lah. we stayed back to clean the classroom. haha. then before that. sherine and adeline had their birthday surprise.

so nice lah. and i'm jealous cuz i only had 4 ppl wishing me happy bday on my actual birthday... ms tan, carolyn, nat saw and. um. lemme think. was it fann? i think so...

then did cip with sherine today. was fun lah. but uber tiring.. we did for 3 hours. at orchard. man. it was so tiring. and we met quite a lot of sc ppl lah. including 1se ppl and qingyi [fann's senior]. stupid her. dont allow sherine and i to slack lahhhh T___T

oh well. so now i have abt 20 hrs of cip if im not wrong. heh =D

then today when fann went toilet and i was waiting for her. cheryl, yian and jean were in one cubical in the toilet. LOL. and yian and cheryl were doing their funny laughs lol. then this jean stood on the toilet bowl and looked over. lol. sicko =D then when fann left. i sprinkled a little water into their cubical and they were screaming. hAHA xD

haiz. so boredddd. gah. and i cant rmb anything alr. i only know my feet are so sore!

2007-08-28T23:16:00.000+08:00

today was fun lah. previous days i guess it was too. i'm too lazy to say everything. when i feel like it then i shall. haha. oh and sherine. YOU OWE ME A 186 TALL DOOR!!

i just came to post this

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHERINE & ADELINE!

haha =D

2007-08-26T20:57:00.001+08:00

haiz. i was blog hopping just now like crazy..

well and i realised that. i think i'm drifting away from God.

i dont feel the urge to go to church as much as i used to.. leave it to God's hands~

Still - hillsong
Hide me now
Under your wings
Cover me within your mighty hand

When the oceans rise and thunders roar
I will soar with you above the storm
Father you are king over the flood
I will be still and know you are God

Find rest my soul
In Christ alone
Know his power
In quietness and trust

2007-08-26T18:23:00.000+08:00

sorry for not posting. i tried to post but it kept saying invalid link. ugh. blogger gets on my nerves~

OKAY. so anyway. past few days have been going crazy over ppl lah. esp 2 ppl -

- MOKOMICHI HAYAMI
- YAMASHITA TOMOHISA

dont know then too bad =D

dl so many songs and yeah. blah blah blah blah blah.

oh. and archery was fun. instead of doing judo like the thursday group. we did something called kangoo jumps. its fun lah. =D interested to know then ask me online! xD

hmm. oh. and.. i dunno what else to say. haiz. nxt week there's bowling training for the last week T_T and then on weds im gg out with sherine to do cip at orchard and get her a bday present. well it is her bday after all.. and she owes me the sausages.. its due on TUESDAY SHERINE!!

and i'll prob go for ltf like nxt week cuz deborah is in charge of refreshments =D i must try xD

o well. today during church it was fun. the sermon was " I sinned again..." and the guy said the "..." represents that it can be continued, for eg - "I sinned again, and again, and again..." hahaa. and he said his version of "an apple a day keeps the doctor away" is "a chapter a day keeps evil away".. and his version of "once bitten twice shy" is "once sin twice run" or something like that. anyway it was funny. and i did learn more. hopefully i'll get closer with God =D

then during art today i did NOTHING. seriously! all i did was to crap about with jean about jap/korean ppl or wtv lah. then nat was thinking we're mad lol. haha. and we played with ipods like crazy. then nat, jean, ningzhen and i went to get drinks from the pokka vending machine. then jean was like "eh, all our drinks are pokka!" then nat and i were like "ITS A POKKA VENDING MACHINE!!" HAHA. i drank coffee. nat drank some carrot fruit juice.. jean drank green tea lol. and we ate food.. so then went home then yeah.

then i was asking sherine for nice songs to listen to. and she dumped me with so many song TITLES. and she had to go off. so i had to search all myself. and like. all she asked me to listen to was DBSK and ALL SUPER JUNIOR SONGS.geez. ALL. saw the word ALL?.. haiz.

well obviously i'm not that crazy lah =D

haiz. i wonder how its going to be like tmr...

Gone [spanish] - nsync
Que palabras te puedo decir
Que te hagan volver (yeah yeah)
Tu perdida con el tiempo y yo sin tu querer
Tantas cosas que dijiste amor
Que no pude entender (mmm)
Tu buscando un nuevo comenzar
Y no lo supe ver
Que pude yo decir, que te hizo partir
Congelando mi corazon
Asi no puedo seguir
Que diera porque estes junto a mi, aqui.

Estoy ahogandome
No te puedo olvidar(no te puedo olvidar)
Y como un hombre busco como aguantar
Alucinando en el recuerdo de tu voz amor (tu voz amor)
Cuando me, dijiste, no!
¡no!!
no! (baby no) ¡no!
Sin piedad (como meto yo)
no, no, no--

Y puedo darte mil excusas baby
Aunque nada va a cambiar (ohh, ohh)
Pero si hay algo que debo hacer, ven y dimelo ya
Un minuto, es una eternidad,
asi es un dia sin ti (asi es un dia sin ti)
y sin embargo no puedo vivr(sin ti), cambiando todo por Ti.
Por eso dejare de darte mi atencion, a lo que anhela mi corazon
Porque muy dentro yo se, que tambien tu me deseas asi,
dime que si (yeah yeah)

Estoy ahogandome (ahogandome)
No te puedo olvidar (no te puedo olvidar)
Y como un hombre busco como aguantar ( un hombre que no debellorar)
Alucinando en el recuerdo de tu voz amor (recordando tu voz)
Cuando me, dijiste (me dijiste)
¡no! (no)
!no¡ (no)
¡no! (no estas)
no, no, no--no

Yo te quiero preguntar
Ahora que ya no estas
Si tu sientes por mi, no me dejes solo aqui
oh, ohhh, ohh!

Estoy ahogandome (ahogandome)
No te puedo olvidar (no te puedo olvidar)
Y como un hombre busco como aguantar ( busco como aguantar)
Alucinando en el recuerdo de tu voz amor (recuerdo baby)
Cuando me, dijiste (Cuando me dijiste no)

Estoy ahogandome (ahogandome)
No te puedo olvidar (no te puedo olvidar)
Y como un hombre busco como aguantar ( busco como aguantar)
Alucinando en el recuerdo de tu voz amor(Ahh ahh)
Cuando me, dijiste (Cuando dijiste que no)
¡no! (no)
!no¡
Cuando medijiste

2007-08-21T15:03:00.000+08:00

okay. sorry for not updating lah. so many things happened since the last post and.. i was too lazy to post ;D

okay. i'll start with.. uh. sunday. yeah.

so sunday went to church. charmaine didn't go. at least thats what mabel told me. cuz she didn't go for ss. haven't seen lauren, rosslyn, sherilyn and melissa at church for like. probably a million years. haha. then they didn't go either. then becky saw me. she was like "OH! HELLO!! I HAVENT SEEN YOU IN LIKE A MILLION YEARS!" in her normal freaky self ;D

then went for young teens at 2nd parsonage. wah. the topic was "He's my friend but..." it was meant for us to think if we should have non-christian friends and how to communicate with them. so then the conclusion was we could have non-christian friends as long as we dont participate in any activity claimed unclean. lol ;D

then went for art. church ended so early then reached nafa at like. 12.15? gah. i went to the vending machine and bought a can of coffee ;D then waited for ppl to come. then nat finally came then ning zhen came. then we were trying to call jean but she kept cutting off lah then she smsed. haha. she came in after the teacher explained everything xD

so had fun lah. at least i guess i did. then jean was so cold so i lent her my jacket. nat didn't bring hers. then we were playing with the glue. so funny. it was like blobby and sticky and goooooo-ey and.. hmm. yeah then. it came out in pretty big blobs. hahah =DDD then nat accidentally put her phone onto the glue that we played with on the magazine. hAHAHAHAHA. then we went to the water cooler to wash it. then we started playing with water. its so cold lah. then went back in. jean tried to fly with my jacket. then nat took a video and added some funny music to it ;D. anyone interested to see? xD i dont mind posting it on youtube for the world to see =DD

then went home and stressed out over music and history.. but then my uncle came. he's living in new york. so came to visit lah. then my aunty, his wife, is coming nxt week for operation then he's waiting for her to come. so my uncle taught my bro his science. MAN I HOPE HE GETS HIS BAND ONE. I WANT MY ELECTRIC GUITAR!!

then he stayed for dinner. it was a FEAST man!! XDD hmm. then went online after that. then talked talked talked. blah blah blah. then i did 2 out of the 4 required music analysis. then i wanted to do but nat saw said she's gg sleep and would wake up at 4am to do hers. and i hadn't finish my lit yet. so i told her i'd wake up at 4 too. then i really did! i felt hyper lahh. then helped her with her music analysis and did finish mine and my lit. went off at 6.45am ;D

went to school after that as usual. [its monday btw]. then fann was so hyper lah. she gt 2 packets of water babies from amber. then she wanted to give one packet to sylvia her senior. but she wanted some of the colours so she. heh . shan't expose her here ;D

then had eng summary test. was ok lah. then had one free period. so spent that period walking around in class wondering? then fann wanted to activate 2 small packets of her water babies. so we were thinking how to not let lao shi know haha ;D

so after that was break. then had chinese... then had recess. went with fann to science lab again. this time i brought my file so i had something to do ;D then had maths. then. lit. got scolding from ms sharon and did that poem. what.. uh. dear madam.. somethingsomething lah ;D then carolyn shennen and amanda were singing it in diff tunes. and they tried she bangs u know!! the one by ricky martin. HAHAH. it was like. DEAR MADAM, DEAR MADAM. something something lah so funny =DD

then had geog. carolyn and i had a hard time catching up with him cuz we were like day dreaming lah. then didn't have assembly. so was just playing with the water babies. haha. then the driver sent cheryl and jean home. like to the bus stops lah. then i stayed at home andd.. played with my bro and. OH YES.

my bro he had to cut his hair. so didn't have time to cut his hair lah. then my mum said i could cut his hair. after cutting he looks like that korean guy. super tall one. man i keep forgetting their names ^^"

so cool lah. then blah blah blah then went sleep.

so today... went to school then.. uh. oh yeah i forgot to mention that i had to help fann bring home some 200 water babies cuz she had ice skating. then i brought it and yeah. OH YEAH I FORGOT TO MENTION THAT SHE SPILLED THE WATER BABIES ALL OVER CLASS DURING LIT. HAHAH ;D

so yeah. then. let see. um.. first lesson was.. chinese. yeah. then had some zi du test lah. then after that had oddssey of the mind. then after that was break. well our break was kinda gone by that time. so went for music. then during carolyn's group's presentation. claudine and i were playing with the light lah. so fun. =D

then had recess. again, fann and i went to science lab to do our work. oh. and mr sim vandelised our whole wwhite board with names who haven't handed up stuff. haha ;D

so we did our files and i also did my practical book. then we finished it. so went to eat and rushed. we thought we were last but we saw jean and sherine sitting there. we were like. OMG LOL. then we ran to the western stall to eat the noodle thingy ;D

we ate so fast. it was nice and we were hungry anyway. but sherine and jean had went already. so fann and i ate so fast and ran back to the lab. hah =D

so had science then went back to class. had math in the com lab. did the charts thingy. then sherine ah. so blur. nv listen. then i had to keep telling her how to do. then she sang bday song for kibum and claudine's dad? LOL. so funny. then after that had history. it ended like 10 mins early lah.

so went home and here i am =D

haiz. i feel like complaining bout someone now but.. its like.. i dont wanna offend anyone in public -.-" its just wrong..

Always you by amber pacific
I'll hold a place for you
Inside my heart for you and I
I won't forget these tears I cried
With every year that passes by

And I can't sleep without you
And I can't breathe anymore

Good times last forever
I'll keep my heart with yours
For every minute I am gone
Swear you'll never leave me
I'll be there every time
In your heart and in your eyes

I'll give it up this time again
Some things are better left unsaid
And all I have are lasting dreams
Our word's worth more this time it seems

And I can't sleep without you
And I can't breathe anymore

Good times last forever
I'll keep my heart with yours
For every minute I am gone
Swear you'll never leave me
I'll be there every time
In your heart and in your eyes

Good times last forever
I'll keep my heart with yours
For every minute I am gone
Swear you'll never leave me
I'll be there every time
In your heart and in your eyes

Good times last forever
I'll keep my heart with yours
For every minute I am gone
Swear you'll never leave me
I'll be there every time
In your heart and in your eyes

In your eyes

2007-08-18T21:04:00.000+08:00

Amthem of our dying day by story of the year
The stars will cry
The blackest tears tonight
And this is the moment that I live for
I can smell the ocean air
And here I am
Pouring my heart onto these rooftops
Just a ghost to the world
That's exactly
Exactly what I need

From up here the city lights burn
Like a thousand miles of fire
And I'm here to sing this anthem
Of our dying day

For a second I wish the tide
Would swallow every inch of this city
As you gasp for air tonight
I'd scream this song right in your face
If you were here
I swear I won't miss a beat
Cause I never
Never have before

From up here the city lights burn
Like a thousand miles of fire
And I'm here to sing this anthem
Of our dying day

Of our dying day
Of our dying day
Of our dying!!!

For a second I wish the tide
Would swallow every inch of this city
And you gasp for air tonight!!

From up here the city lights burn
Like a thousand miles of fire
And I'm here to sing this anthem
Of our dying day

From up here the city lights burn
Like a thousand miles of fire
And I'm here to sing this anthem
Of our dying day

From up here the city lights burn
Like a thousand miles of fire
And I'm here to sing this anthem
Of our dying day

Our dying day
Of our dying!!!

2007-08-18T16:34:00.000+08:00

I want you back by nsync
You’re all I ever wanted
You’re all I ever needed, yeah
So tell me what to do now
When I want you back

It’s hard to say I’m sorry
It’s hard to make the things I did undone
A lesson I’ve learned too well, for sure
So don’t hang up the phone now
I’m trying to figure out just what to do
I’m going crazy without you

You're all I ever wanted
You're all I ever needed, yeah
So tell me what to do now
When I want you back

Baby I remember
The way you used to look at me and say
Promises never last forever
I told you not to worry
I said that everything would be alright
I didn’t know then that you were right

You’re all I ever wanted
You’re all I ever needed, yeah
So tell me what to do now
When I want you back
I want you back
You’re the one I want
You’re the one I need
Girl what can I do

You’re the one I want
You’re the one I need
Tell me what can I do
You’re all I ever wanted
You’re all I ever needed, yeah
So tell me what to do now
When I want you back

Page avenue by story of the year
i still recall every summer night
like it was yesterday
the time would never end
and my friends were family
nothing mattered more
than the loyalty we had
now i'm a world away from everything we shared

i had something better
waiting ahead
i try to take control of my heart
i had something better
but i'll tear it down and i'll tape it up
by my own design i fall

bring back the days
three story parking lot
the air is never dry
as the city falls asleep, days bleed into the night

the tables set the stage
for a life of memories
but i'm a world away from everything

i had something better
waiting ahead
i try to take control of my heart
i had something better
but i'll tear it down and i'll tape it up
by my own design i fall
apart as time passes by
i fall apart but the memories never die

and i still recall every summer night
it seems like yesterday but i'm still a world away

i had something better
waiting ahead
i try to take control of my heart
i had something better
but i'll tear it down and i'll tape it up
by my own design i fall

i had something better
i had something better
and i fall apart,
as time passes

Words, hands, hearts by yellowcard

The whole world was sleeping
And I was there
You could just sense this feeling in the air
Like no one's words were good enough to define what we feared
And no one's words were strong enough to fix what happened here

Lead on to save me
Lead us all there
Find me some answers
One nation beware
Can't tell the difference between myth and man
Or what's necessary or where I should stand

The whole world is different now men have died
They can just sense this feeling in our eyes
Like no one's hands are big enough to hold onto this fear
And no one's hands are strong enough to fix what happened here

Lead on to save me
Lead us all there
Find me some answers
One nation beware
Can't tell the difference between myth and man
Or what's necessary or where I should stand

So do we do now
Raise our voices loud
Were searching for something that cannot be found
Here open mouths
I see open hands
Blinded and silent I can't understand

The whole word is watching with one blank stare
I can just sense this feeling of ill-repair
Like no one's heart is full enough to keep away this fear
And no one's heart is strong enough to fix what happened here

Lead on to save me
Lead us all there
Find me some answers
It's time that you shared
Can't tell the difference between myth and man
Or what's necessary or where I should stand

So do we tell now
Raise our voices loud
We're searching for something that cannot be found
I hear open mouths
And I see open hands
Like the blinded and silent I can't understand.

2007-08-18T15:39:00.000+08:00

haiz. i've got so much to complain about yesterday lah. its probably one of the worst days u can find..

first, i woke up super late. i woke up at like almost 7... then traffic jam like siao i thought i was gonna be so late lah. just lucky it didnt. then it started raining when the announcements then. yeah half my bag got wet.. stupid. then went back to class was so tired. fell asleep like. what. during double period chinese lah.then.. break. i was practically wondering around.. otherwise i would've fallen asleep.

so went up to science lab early for the enrichment thing.. whole group went up except fann. so we ended up being like the last group. its dumb lah. but yeah. then had recess. i stayed with fann in the science lab whole time to do her file up. then after that went to canteen to get bugged by her seniors. so fann being nice bought so much food. i had to help her eat. bleh. whatever i ate was sour. whatever fann ate was sweet. too sweet and too sour. lol.

then it was art. mrs chia said jap ppl were coming.. then everyone so guai lah. then was doing my work. wah i got so pissed lah. my paper kept turning green. most of u would know why. then ah. i paint that time. my paper got white spots all over. the reason is pretty obvious too.

then after that supposed to stay back for the debate thing. then i went to the library cuz i was bored. then i read one book like 50 pages. then i fell asleep lor..then i woke up and read another 5 pages. fell asleep again. then read another 5 lines. fell asleep. then read like maybe just 2 words. then i fell asleep. then when i woke up i checked the time and i realised it was already 2.50 lah. i started reading/sleeping at abou 1.20.. can u believe that? so stupid lah.

then i followed my mum to get a new car cuz i'm complaining about the current car for the chauffeur. so its a honda fit then need to trade in for a honda too. so my mum said she'll get a odessey. but when we were trying out the cars right. wah i tell u. cannot stand it lah either i'm too tall or the ceiling was too low. i kept hitting my head when i wanna get out of the car lah stupid -.-

then went to clementi central to eat. wah eat so much until i was exploding lah. that was my dinner okay. it was like. 5.20 or something. then went home i couldn't eat anything until like. 12+.. lol. then from about 6 till 12 was playing halo with my bro on xbox. so dumb lah. then nat saw kept calling me. and her bro is so irritating and. sounds like stephanie ho. haha.

then her bro kept interrupting here and there. and nat saw kept bugging me to go back to the com lol.. hahah xD

then i called yuching cuz i didn't feel like typing lah. then went to my room. i talk to her until i felt like sleeping. -.-"

then went to sleep. then this morning i woke up at 9.10. my piano teacher came at 9. he waited for so long lah. haha. then piano sucked today. i screwed up so much. blehhhh

then went to church for preacher mark chen's wedding. haha. he's still as funny as ever ;D

then no offence lah. john lee was playing cello lol. then. then. im still taller than him. shawn is already so much taller than me lah. en zhao, aka ice cream boy, is still same height as my bro. and they're all same age man ;D

haiz. im so bored and restless now.. my bro's having chinese tuition. later im gonna have mine at 4.30. gah...

you know what. i've got so much to complain. something i want to complain about is bowling. im really losing interest in bowling already. especially since the competition was over. i just dont find it fun or enjoyable. its like. sucha chore... im getting sick of everyone and everything already. its so sickening lah.i just wish i can stay at home everyday. im sick of seeing ppl. im sick of hearing ppl. im sick of listening. its so frustrating. ugh. i HATE IT.

The game is over by nsync
Oh yeah
Oh yeah
Irresistible
Is what you think you are
That's so typical
You think that you're a star
You act like
Everyone revolves around you
Baby you dropped the ball
And now the game is through

'Cause you tried to play both sides
You got caught up in your lies
And now you running
You running out of time

Played yourself
Or did ya, did ya
Think you could really
Find love from someone else?
You making moves
You gonna lose
You know you played yourself
And now you thinking, thinking
You can get one by me
But you'll never win,
But you'll never win
Try again
'Cause the game is over

Take it personal
'Cause I did
When you cheated on me
You may be beautiful
But there's more
That the eye can see
You're so predictable
The way you calculate each move
Heads I win
And tails you lose
Because you don't have
The right to choose

'Cause you tried to play both sides
You got caught up in your lies
And now you running
You running out of time

Played yourself
Or did ya, did ya
Think you could really
Find love from someone else?
You making moves
You gonna lose
You know you played yourself
And now you thinking, thinking
You can get one by me
But you'll never win,
But you'll never win
Try again
'Cause the game is over

Yeah

How could you think
You could do me like that?
Running behind my back
How could you do me like that?
Treat me like that
Now the game is over
How could you think
You could do me like that?
Treat me like that
Do me like that

Played yourself
Or did ya, did ya
Think you could really
Find love from someone else?
You making moves
You gonna lose
You know you played yourself
And now you thinking, thinking
You can get one by me
But you'll never win,
But you'll never win
Try again
'Cause the game is over

Played yourself
Or did ya, did ya
Think you could really
Find love from someone else?
You making moves
You gonna lose
You know you played yourself
And now you thinking, thinking
You can get one by me
But you'll never win,
But you'll never win
Try again
'Cause the game is over

Game
Over

pissedd

2007-08-16T19:44:00.000+08:00

i feel so pissed. i dunno. i been feeling pissed this week and at the same time i feel hyper lah.

what kinda combination is that huh?

MANNNNNNNNN. ugh..

okay first off. i feel really pissed..

aos teacher didn't accept the script that i spent so much time on
almost half the class played this game. which was to ignore me. how fun eh. i got so pissed lah.
i felt pissed because.. of.. some things which.. i dont think i'll say here.

well. basically. there are many reasons but i wont say them here. its either too personal or its just gonna hurt someone.

i really really really cannot tolerate it lah. i mean like. fine. so what if u say that and all. but keep repeating it lah. go on. i already feel so pissed still go irritate me summor.so what if i dont show it huh? not like i cant be happy for a moment. ugh

then today mrs quek put me in charge of collecting the red cross booklets. otherwise ms ku is gonna chase me. bleh.

then.. i dunno. okay. im nt really in the mood to blog.

bowling today was okay.. my bowling didn't deprove or anything.. i went crazy during bowling but the moment i stopped for a second i'll feel all the frustraton coming back so i had to stay crazy the whole time.

i cant stand ittttttttttttttttt. man i wish i could just spill everything out here.. but like... i dont wanna hurt anyone lah. neither do i wanna cause any misunderstanding. that is just something horrible i dont wanna do. but but.. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

so horrible. ugh.

carolyn scribbled all over my science book while i was sleeping. and while i was trying to sleep. then she wanted to draw on my neck. and she wrote on my arm. -.-"

then during pe today. did that hip hop thingy for aces day. so tiring lah. what jump here jump here. bend and move ur legs like what what. then i was standing nxt to carolyn and fann was behind me. then carolyn her arms and legs so long keep hitting me. i kept falling lah. then fann was laughing at me and also cuz the thing was so stupid. then carolyn was like. fann stop laughing. in her serious voice..

and carolyn got a happy note for being "so cool". lol.

i feel so tired and pissed and everything. GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

For all these times son, for all these times by lost prophets
Yeah!
So can you feel your heartbeat racing?
Can you feel the tension rise?
Can you see the road you're walking?
Are these times too hard to recognize?
Part of where you're going,
Is knowing where you're coming from.
The hardest part of moving forward
Are these times when we all stand alone.

No! No!
But you'll never believe.
No! No!

For all these times, that we walked away
For all these times, that I've heard you say
Give me something to believe in,
Give me someone to believe in.
For all these times, and it starts today.

A generation always waiting,
A revolution passed this time.
Another reason to take stock
Of all these things that you have left behind.
Feelings that will never leave you
Never make you change your mind,
You gotta make it out past this one
Always the wrong place at the wrong time.

No! No!
But you'll never believe.
No! No!

For all these times, that we walked away
For all these times, that I've heard you say
Give me something to believe in,
Give me someone to believe in.
For all these times, and it starts today.

Lipgloss Lies, doin the time.
Never gonna miss what I left behind.
If I get the chance I'll do it again.
I wouldn't change it! Change it!
Change It! Change It!

Lipgloss Lies, doin the time.
Never gonna miss what I left behind.
If I get the chance I'll do it again.
I wouldn't change it! Change it!
Change It! Change It!

No! No!
But you'll never believe.
No! No!

For all these times, that we walked away
For all these times, that I've heard you say
Give me something to believe in,
Give me someone to believe in.
Give me something to believe in,
Give me someone to believe in.

Lipgloss Lies, doin the time.
Never gonna miss what I left behind.
If I get the chance I'll do it again.
I wouldn't change it! Change it!
Change It! Change It!

Lipgloss Lies, doin the time.
Never gonna miss what I left behind.
If I get the chance I'll do it again.
I wouldn't change it! Change it!
Change it! Change it!

#124

2007-08-15T19:47:00.000+08:00

THIS IS THE HUNDRED AND TWENTY FOURTH BLOG POST ;D

hahaha. okayy okay. hm... today i was so pissed at the aos teacher lah. wa lao eh. i spent so long doing the damned script and she tells me "is not good enough?" I KNOW MY CHINESE SUCKS BUT HELLO!!!.. even my mum said its okay. gah.

so anyway. now i'm acting as D which only has.. 4 lines xD

haizzz... so before aos had ce. then mrs quek told us a story about a girl from supposingly sy. she didn't bring a hist tb and said its cuz she lent it to someone she doesn't know and the person from se didn't wanna lend to her. HAHAHAHA. man the story was funny okay.

then during break, natassia carolyn mabel felicia were photocopying the script the teacher gave us. ugh. then fann bought blah blah i bought blah blah. so yeah. then went to canteen. bought so much food. and fann exchanged place with carolyn for that lesson.so funny lah geog. it was so slack okay. we only went thru 2 pages of wb. HAHA

then mr teo was telling us about his school life with the prefects. LOL. and mrs quek came in to ask for our lit marks. bleh.

then recess followed fann to the pe office to check our activity for health week. haha. then went canteen.. yeah yeah. blah blah. then had double eng/lit period at the lt. wah i tell u ah.. the presentation from sy was funny. they kept going erm.. ermm.. ermmm. after one girl did it. the other one also went ermmm. ermmmm. HAHAHAHA

okay okay okay. then right. uh. uh. had.. science. yeah. then fann and i ran to the science lab cuz of the enrichment thingy. our group is still leading xDDDD

then made a backrest. it feels comfortable and all. but it was only at the end of the lesson that fann and i thought of how to be able to adjust the height of the backrest. heh =D its good okay. considering that we're only using sponge, styrofoam, styrofoam bag thingy and string. xDDD

then after that went home lahh. followed jean again. we were walking when we missed the bus. then sherine went opp then. when sherine's bus went past. jean said she was looking at us. i so blur lah. only sai i saw black black hair floating all around. -.-"

then went home so tired. then.. blah blah blah blah blah blah. yeah. ;D

haiz. so.. i dunno. tmr my mum said the driver's coming to start work. man. that means. i've got my mean of transport for bowling from now onwards xDDD

todayyy

2007-08-13T19:36:00.000+08:00

okayy. so today.. changed seat lah. then rebecca koh, my current partner, and i went to mrs quek and asked if we could change seats. so from tmr onwards, im gonna sit beside carolyn [not a good thing] but i can see the whiteboard [good thing] ;D

well that corner is gonna be noisy but yeah =D

then this fann ah. wanted me to help her fold stars for her senior, sylvia. haha. ;D i was so mean. didn't help her lol.

oh yeah. today is the start of the hungry ghost festival. u know nat saw sms me last night. i almost forgot about it until she reminded me lah. then i was talking to jean. she ah. 3am still not sleeping. go sms me. well not like i was sleeping either..

haiz. i haven't really finished the art of speech script yet. carolyn said she's coming on tonight to help me. lol. my future partner is nice? LOL xD

AIYA. i feel so... confused lah.

then today stayed back for workout. haha. i tell u ah. we ran and ran. then ended playing freeze and melt in the courtyard. then we played pepsicola in the gallery. O MAN THAT SUCKS. magdalene won every game. lol. first game i died cuz stehanie was so kind. she screamed into my ear then i was like OUCHH. then i hold my ear then she go step on me. what a cheater! ;D

then second game i died cuz my buddy killed mee. evil. NAH ;D way nicer than stephanie lah. then after that, jo, deb, nat and i were sitting on the sofa lah. then we were cheering like. GO - VA - NE- SSA. LOL. like one person one syllable. lol.. then we started singing national day songs. wa lao. they sing until so high. my voice died leh.. those of u in 6h-06 know why ;D

i dunno. today i just feel like i've got a lot to complain about.

then had this science enrichment course thingy. its about innovation lah. then my group we everything finish the puzzles with the.. wtv u call it. tentagram. WHATEVER LAH. then we got a total of i think 180 points. other groups are like. 100 lah.. 140. i dunno. we're in the lead ;D

haizzzz. SERIOUSLY LAH.

i dunno whats wrong with me. i just

feel like complaining alot.

Diary of Jane by Breaking Benjamin
If I had to
I would put myself right beside you
So let me ask
Would you like that?
Would you like that?

And I don't mind
If you say this love is the last time
So now I'll ask
Do you like that?
Do you like that?

No

Something's getting in the way
Something's just about to break
I will try to find my place in the diary of Jane
So tell me how it should be

Try to find out what makes you tick
As I lie down
Sore and sick
Do you like that?
Do you like that?

There's a fine line between love and hate
And I don't mind
Just let me say that I like that
I like that

Something's getting in the way
Something's just about to break
I will try to find my place in the diary of Jane
As I burn another page
As I look the other way
I still try to find my place in the diary of Jane
So tell me how it should be

Desperate, I will crawl
Waiting for so long
No love, there is no love
Die for anyone
What have I become

Something's getting in the way
Something's just about to break
I will try to find my place in the diary of Jane
As I burn another page
As I look the other way
I still try to find my place
In the diary of Jane

haiz

2007-08-12T18:27:00.000+08:00

haiz. im just so. i dunno..

last night i got pulled into this convo with diff ppl. one was with 6h-06. and another was with jean and sherine. of course there were more lah.. then in the 6h-06 one we were discussing when to go out. shanice lah. said must book her TWO MONTHS in advance. very funny..

then in the one with jean and sherine. they crap about i dunno what. then jean lagged my com up. then then.. the art of speech script thingy went GONE. so i stayed up to do it again.

i feel so tired lah.

then. i dunno. past week. i dun wanna talk about it. ugh.

it just sets me on fire the moment i think about the past week. T___T

oh well. then today went back to the old church cuz my dad went to KL. then my mum just came back this morning so she wanted to go back and see her friends. then cuz i fell asleep so we were kinda late. yeah. i slept at about 3am and woke up at 6 cuz my mum came back. u think i'm tired?

then went church then went for art. damn i didn't feel like talking and nat kept going "jemima why so quiet?!" -.-"

haiz. it just feels so depressing for the past week. gah.

forget it. i need to finish the art of speech script now. argh. later.

BORED,TIRED,HYPER. =D

2007-08-07T19:16:00.001+08:00

i shan't post lyrics. i feel so hungry =D i'm recovering and so is my buddy xD

lalalala. HAHAHAHA. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA. noooooooooooooooooooo. i cant swing my arm backwards T_T
I CANT!!!! but i NEED TO. I NEED TO BOWL =D

BOWLING BOWLING BOWLING
BOWLING BOWLING BOWLING
BOWLING BOWLING BOWLING
xD

haiz. so bored lah.. haiz. tireddd.. but feeling hyper. but no one to talk to T_T
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
always so depressing when i'm hyper and there isn't anyone to talk to. oh wells. =D

CHANGE OF SEAT/posting lyrics spree =D

2007-08-07T15:35:00.000+08:00

HELLO! haha. today im so super tired lahh. SHERINE DIDNT GIVE ME MY NINE SAUSAGESSSSS T_____T

o well. hmm. today.. uhs. uh. uh uh uh uh.OH YEAH.. today some of us had to change seats. im not sitting beside fann anymore but.. but... i'm sitting at the side and i cant see the board and i'm not sitting on the last rowww T_T and teenzhen is sitting behind me. haha.

O MAN BUT I WANNA CHANGE MY SEAT. maybe change with qiying cuz she doesn't wanna sit there.

k.. i feel like posting a lot of lyrics today so dont mind the super long post =D

today was the first time i took bus home with jean. as in. not her following me. lol. yeah. then we followed sherine up halfway thru the overhead bridge. then we went back down. then. then. 156 came then. then then then. yeah. then. we were complaining.then.. aiyaaa. and i spammed sherine =D

then. then. then. then. then. then. then. then. then... i dunno. its so boring today. haiz. i cant remember what homework there is.. hm... i dunno. tmr national day celebration. prob going out with seniors. i'm gonna be the only sec1 .. T_T but doesn't matter. my seniors are nice xD

then thurs going to jo's house to do project. O MAN I CANT GO SINGFEST AND WATCH MXPX AND THE ACADEMY IS. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. i so wanna goooo T_T

and i'm supposed to spot nat saw on tv? cuz she's going to the national day parade. haiz.

then friday going out with nat and sam. heh. nat and i shall buy so many cds. and we shall take neos. so sad jean cant go lah.. otherwise more fun =D

i'm gonna go broke this week... but i shall get MANY MANY CDS =D

OH MAN. I REALLY WANNA GO SINGFESTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT.

ahhhhh. forget it. ugh. argh. cant go. T_T

i dun wanna be the only sec1 going tmr leh. i feel so odd out.. lol. my buddy #3 peiyi has red eye according to mars. GET WELL SOON! hope she can go tmr. T_T

wonder if yi an is going out. then if i see her i'll just ask her to come along or something. fann's going out with her section. the moment she mentions it she gets all excited all over. haha.

OHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. i wish we didn't have to change seats =X

must be ruijia's fault. lol. =D

okk. i shall start dumping lyrics =D

Rooftops by lost prophets
When our time is up,
When our lives are done,
Will we say we've had our fun?

Will we make a mark, This time.
Will we always say we tried.

Standing on the rooftops,
Everybody scream your heart out.
Standing on the rooftops,
Everybody scream your heart out.
Standing on the rooftops,
Everybody scream your heart out.
This is all we've got now,
Everybody scream your heart out.

All the love I've met,
I have no regrets,
If it all ends now, I'm set.

Will we make our mark, This time.
Will we always say we tried?

Standing on the rooftops,
Everybody scream your heart out.
Standing on the rooftops,
Everybody scream your heart out.
Standing on the rooftops,
Everybody scream your heart out.
This is all we've got now,
Everybody scream your heart out.

Standing on the rooftop,
Waiting till the bomb drops,
This is all we've got now,
Scream until your heart stops,
Never gonna regret,
Watching every sunset,
Listen to your heartbeat,
All the love that we've felt.

Standing on the rooftop,
Waiting till the bomb drops,
This is all we've got now,
Scream until your heart stops,
Never gonna regret,
Watching every sunset,
Listen to your heartbeat,
All the love that we've felt.

Scream your heart out.
Scream your heart out.
Scream your heart out.
Scream your...

Standing on the rooftops,
Everybody scream your heart out.
Standing on the rooftops,
Everybody scream your heart out.
Standing on the rooftops,
Everybody scream your heart out.
This is all we've got now,
Everybody scream your...

Can't stop. Gotta date with hate by lost prophets
Her eyes are open like a book
Her fingers stroke her hair to look
A moment feels so out of place
This will left standing in disgrace

Paint your fingernails at night
Style you hair in the bathroom light
Hatred never looked this good
Whoever thought it could

I don't wanna wait or leave it up to fate
'cause I just wanna watch you all night

Screaming

End it you're gone and
Don't you wake me up,
I don't want this dream to...
End it you're gone and
Don't you wake me up,
I don't want this dream to...
End

One kiss those lips could never lie
But I know something isn't right
Don't be fooled my friends aside
'cause I see nothing in those eyes

All said and done
This won't be fun
Make no mistake
Those smiles are fake

Don't wanna wait or leave it up to fate
'cause I just wanna watch you all night

Screaming

End it you're gone and,
Don't you wake me up,
I don't want this dream to...
End it you're gone and,
Don't you wake me up,
I don't want this dream to...
End

But believe me, I know it will always be moving
I know we could find a key

End it you're gone and
Don't you wake me up,
I don't want this dream to...
End it you're gone and
Don't you wake me up,
I don't want this dream to...

All the times that we suffered this before
Never once did you ever close that door
All the make up cannot hide the fact
That you're gone and you're never coming back.

In between by linkin park

Let me apologize to begin with
Let me apologize for what I'm about to say
But trying to be genuine was harder than it seemed
And somehow I got caught up in between

Let me apologize to begin with
Let me apologize for what I'm about to say
But trying to be someone else was harder than it seemed
And somehow I got caught up in between

Between my pride and my promise
Between my lies and how the truth gets in the way
And things I want to say to you get lost before they come
The only thing that's worse than one is none

Let me apologize to begin with
Let me apologize for what I'm about to say
But trying to regain your trust was harder than it seemed
And somehow I got caught up in between

Between my pride and my promise
Between my lies and how the truth gets in the way
The things I want to say to you get lost before they come
The only thing that's worse than one is none
The only thing that's worse than one is none

And I cannot explain to you
And anything I say or do or plan
Fear is not afraid of you
But guilt's a language you can understand

I cannot explain to you
And anything I say or do
I hope the actions speak the words they can

For my pride and my promise
For my lies and how the truth gets in the way
The things I want to say to you get lost before they come
The only thing that's worse than one is

Pride and my promise
Between my lies and how the truth gets in the way
The things I want to say to you get lost before they come
The only thing that's worse than one is none
The only thing that's worse than one is none
The only thing that's worse than one is none

i'll post more lyrics later =D

SICK, TIRED and i had fun =D

2007-08-06T21:59:00.001+08:00

HELLO =D

im' so good lahs. i'm actually blogging again. no actually i saw myself logged onto blogger cuz was helping sausage =D

so anyway. todayyy.. hmm... ok. had lessons.. blah blah blah blah blah. then.. uhs. no. wait.. i cant remember. uh. uh uh uh uh uh uh uh. OH YES. had captains ball today =D was so gay lah. i shant complain about it. heh.

then stayed back for workout lahs. i barely did anything. except that i did extra push ups =D cuz was coughing then didn't do much lor.

after that went island creamery with nat, jo, steph, fish and charlene. steph and i couldn't eat anything so we just sat there and stared while the rest of them either ate icecream or drank some soft drinks. ughhhh T_T

then took some pictures outside with ronald macdonald. LOL. then we went home lah. i walked all the way home.. lol. so tiring but fun =D was talking on the phone with nat all the way through. well sorta. then when i got home i was talking to. uh. dunno? then after that dunno who then dunno who then nat then jean then. see how lah =D

i realised for the past 2 days. i haven't called anyone. everyone has been calling me. i NEED TO FIND SOMEONE TO CALL xD

its so weird lah.

haizz. i feel like spamming lyrics on the blog lah.... can i? =D

SAUSAGE = SHERINE!

2007-08-04T15:16:00.000+08:00

i shall start crapping about sausages..ok. now listen. this is something VERY IMPORTANT.
you MUST remember it ok?!

sherine = sausage

.. simple? its just two words and an equal sign. LOL

next.

orange does not = to nat saw.

thats just as simple as the first.

now..

the third one is.

me = NEVER STUDIES.

thats. even easier. yes? no? yes!

ok. so lets crap. haiz. ok lah. lately coughing like crazy. sick for so long already. oh well. and school is really a horrible drag man. its SO HORRIBLE. gahs. especially oral today. but i was lucky i didn't cough lah. then this. yi an and jean wanted to go out. wait for jean for 1 hour. omg lah. then spent 1 hour deciding where to go. but we ended up going home.. so pathetic right.

stupid stupid stupid

then in the bus i felt like puking lah. then the 2 of them were crapping about smsing guys and blah. then shanice tan started smsing me. o man. i really almost puked when i got off the bus ok. like before the overhead bridge i was like stop. cough cough cough. ALMOST PUKED.

and oh yes.. one more thing.

my sausage is crazy over super junior. KEEP BUGGING ME FOR NO REASON SUMMOR.

haiz.

stupid.

dumb.

gay.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

and lately steph and nat have been bugging me a lot too. especially nat. -.-" cant u guys jut KEEP AWAY?!

oh. and while waiting for jean. i saw keejia. then after a while grace came. then after a while michelle came. keejia and michelle were gonna have oral but grace finished hers already. lol.

haizzzzz.

i hate swings now.

and fann insists that i owe her 6 bars of kinder bueno.. arghhhhh

on monday there's captain ball match. i'm so sick. i dun wanna participate.

weds is national day celebration. released early.and my mum said i can go out. well after persuading her for so many days lah.. haiz.

and today while we were trying to figure out where to go. nat came to sch. cuz her's is second shift. so yeah. so funny. i told her that her examiner could be mrs quek. hahaha. everyone was hoping for mr teo cuz he's more lenient.. haha.

my sausage is so evil. keep doing homework and studying. cant bug.

jean is also another evil one. whole day long just bug her but always no reply sia -.-"

aiya.. not long from now i'm gonna give up bugging ppl.. so sian one.

gahs. forget about it mannn..

oh. and we got 7th for bowling. better than last year. but still. haizzz T_T

i was complaining to yuching lah. she's nice :D

OHHHH WHAT AM I SAYING.

forget it. i'll stop. i feel like posting out the list of songs that are nice to me at this point of TIME.

hahhhhahaaahahahahahahaizzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz T_________T

UPDATE UPDATE UPDATE

2007-08-04T14:04:00.000+08:00

ALRIGHT. i finally feel like posting xD

lol. man.. i wanna change my blogskin. but i'm so lazy -.-"

ok.. i will just change it. since i'm like. waiting for tuition and its soooo soooo soooo boring xD

hahahahahaah. ok. update on my life -

1. i've been sending ALOT OF SMS. u dont wanna know who i sent it to.

2. i've been spamming ppl alot lately.

3. bowling competition sucks but bowling rules still xD

4. i found a new friend called sausage

5. i do not hate orange and i never did. just SOME people claim i do.

6. i like bowling more. n my seniors and my buddies and... my gummy and.... yeah. thats the point.

7. i'm tired so often

8. i've been sick for... 3 over weeks now. and i've been puking.

9. i've been usually talkin to yuching more. and complaining too =D

10. i think this is the last point

ok. so u get the picture yeah? heh. ok. now i shall slowly.. slowly. SLOWLY. change my blogskin........ xD

DUE TO HEAVY DEMANDS

2007-07-06T14:10:00.000+08:00

as many ppl have been asking why i haven't been blogging, i shall onw officially announce the reason

I AM LAZY

thats it. =D and i'm gonna have quite a good record of not blogging for so long =D

camp + friday + weekend + nextweek

2007-06-17T13:44:00.000+08:00

heh. ok so i know i haven't posted for ONE WEEK. *DING DING DING* *NEW RECORD MADE*

hahahaha. i'm getting SO LAME.

okkk. lets talk about camp...

monday

hmm. woke up early. smsed jean and nat bye. then went on the stupid ferry.. reached there. and had a msg by rev. chris c. sidwell. he's sucha good speaker. short but yet detailed. he gives us a walkthrough of the verses instead of reading it out. so good =P

then had lunch.. [the food for the few days weren't really nice.. really.]

then had free time till dinner. oh yeah. batam is one hour behind singapore. so yeah. then went bowlingg. was.. pretty fun larh. aunty py and.. um. josiah, timothy, theodore.. and i dunno. cant remember. were bowling in the lane next to us. then had dinner. and another message.

then had girl's dorm devotion.was fun.. we went to tabby's room. which was luckily next door to deborah's and mine. and rachel was opposite. heh..

and we sat there. then tabby tan and sara sat on the.. bed.. then tab was like "we're like. sitting on the bed. paiseh"... haha.

okkk. i'd better continue otherwise will drag. o yeah. and we sang songsss... like bow the knee, may the Lord find us faithful, not I but Christ.. all nice songs. ^^ and we sang bow the knee TWICE. because we found it too nice. too bad we didn't have accompaniment on the first night =P

tuesday

then woke up with deborah sneezing for ONE HOUR.... nice alarm clock right??

then went late for breakfast. then went for message. then my mum went back to singapore and came back the following day but thats another story.

then the message was all so nice. oh yeah. my camp theme was "take time to be holy". and it was mostly about personal holiness. and i learnt alot from there. [thats a good thing incase you didn't know]

then i suddenly remembered during the message that i'm playing for the children on the following day at night. blehhh. i'd miss the last message you know.

then during free time went bowling AGAIN. and.. i think the other timothy and theodore were on the other lane. and ... hmmm.. those boy's came. uhs. joshua, jonathan and all those tall guys. then uncle chan yong came and took pictures. blehhh. ohoh.i think rachel, aaron n amos went bowling on monday... anywayyyy...

then had dinner after that.. hmmm. thennnn... went for message.. thenn.. went for dorm devotion again.. yayyaya. but this time we went to the marina 3. which is a room for the kids. and we took the smaller room. the guys got the bigger room... this time we had joanne to play the guitar while we sanggg. lalalalaalla. NICE SONGS. xD

and by the time we finished. we were all super tired. cuz today was supposed to have telematch and games. but deborah, my bro and i skipped it. we were all so tired from bowling. and my bro was because he was bored. so we stayed in the room and slacked =X

wednesday

i once again woke up with the oh-so-wonderful alarm clock.. lalalala. then went for breakfast late AGAIN. mann..

so practically the same things happened. this time during bowling. went with deborah, james and jamie. and rachel joined us after that. and uncle roger was taking videos of james and jamie bowl. so funny. especially james =P then jamie was like "i'm not gonna lose to my older brother". HAHAHA. oh. james is sec3. jamie is sec2 deborah is sec1. yeah.... and rachel is sec2 too.

so... SO. then jamie threatened deborah. 'threatened' i mean.. not to pay. HAHAHAHA. but i knew that jamie would pay one larh. then deborah didn't believe.. so we went to her room and asked her.. luckily her room was just on the way to our room..

then oh. we had BBQ DINNER. it was nice. and we had ICE CREAM. so funny. and u know who ate the MOST ICE CREAM that night? surprisingly. IT WAS MY MUM. LOL. my bro, deborah and i ate 3 each. heh.. and my bro ate the most sausages. 11.. bleh.

anywayy. played for the message.. uncle c.h. gave me a piece i didn't practise. but uncle k.k. said it was okk larhhhhhh. hhheeehhhhh..

had dorm devotion. this time the singing was with the guys. and joshua c. played the guitar. or was it gideon.. i dunno. they look the same. and they're.. i think... 17.. or 18. somethingggg.they're just one year difference.

then we shared. and jamie had to leave halfway. sad. anyway.. then.. oh u know. the guys escort the girls back into their rooms everynight. HAHAHHAHA. then daniel [david's brother] sent the ppl on 4th floor back. which means. deborah and my floor. so yeahhh. and my mum went for women's fellowship. then my bro was fast asleep.

thursday

man this day was FRUSTRATING. had to pack our bags to check out. then ate breakfast. had another message.. then had lunch. then.. checked out... SO. anyway... when i got back. smsed all the ppl who smsed me during the trip. and u know whattttt? jean was so nice. sms me everyday. =P

then. [u know what. i know its long but too bad. i still got another 3 more days to describe]

then i came home and used the com.. and i had to practise the pieces for jws. blehhhhh...

okk. boring boring boring.

friday

hmm. i practically did NOTHING. well. except slack at the com.. talk to fann for super long. spammed her on friendster as she requested.. yeah. then watched tv..

saturday

okk. this day i really did nothing much. had tuition. played on com. and.. sms jean. heh..

okkk. then today. i was playing for jws. then uncle rotha said he's chairing. and not uncle c.h. BLEH. then i sight readed 4 pieces. omggg. so scary larhh >< ..

worse off. charmaine, edelweiss and mabel went young lifers instead of staying in jws with me. and after the service they told me only 8 ppl went. i realised how ... poor thing. they are. and.. i was sitting with wan jing larh. she la. go gimme barley mints? ewwwwww.. contaminted my mouth. bleh.

okkk. so now i've finishe telling.. ONE ENTIRE WEEK WORTH OF MY LIFE. =P

i know its sucha small portion. OH. i forgot. on the.. second day went bowling with roselyn. and she did my homework. but no offence. she did most wrongly. ANYWAY. uncle charlie was bowling too. he bowled so well . FOR REAL. unlike uncle b.h. he bowl is fake professionalism. HAHAHA. xD

kkkkkk. i'll stop. i know is super long. oh yeahh

THANK YOU SIONG WOON =P

and.

JO, CHRISTINE C... CAN YOU GUYS MEET UP NEXT FRIDAY FOR HiM?!

ok. i think thats all. xD

SAD!

2007-06-10T14:55:00.000+08:00

gahhhh. im going away.. tomorrow... T______T

bleh.

deb wants me to bring a bball for her? o_o

and she's gonna bring her ipod speakers.. YAY xD

and...

i dunno.

today. went to church. charmaine SO IMPRESSIVE LARH. every song can playyy. summor she didn't practise for it. [i think]. SO COOL RIGHT =P GO CHARMAINE GO!

haha. then she was like. looking so sleepy as ever and still played so nicely. enjoyed it. heh.. deborah was jealous that i got email about church camp n jws and she didn't. SHE SO WANTS TO PLAY FOR JWS TOO. cuz the rest of us ALL play. well. sorta. ^^

and i remember in p2.. when edelweiss, melissa, deborah and i were in church choir.. so funny. i got the solo part. then she was so jealous she was like WHYYY. then i told the teacher. then the teacher said NEXT TIME. HAHAHAHA. she so cant beat me in anything except netball -.-"

LOL.

and then melissa didn't wanna give her shiny coin for offering. then deborah donated money to her. then we had a donation fight. until melissa got a total of an extra 90 cents. i know its ridiculous -.-"

yeah. then i was playing piano and practising guitar. and i didn't know im playing for jws nxt week larhhh. until edelweiss told me but i didn't believe. -.- then suddenly uncle chow hock came and said "jemima ur playing nxt week right?". i was like.. uhhh. yeah think so.. LOL. SO SCARY LARH.. lalallallalala.

i dont wanna miss training but i wanna go camp. u say how bad that is?

then just now when i was so pissed at the stupid song cuz its so darn hard to play.. then jo sms me. WRONG TIMING. then i was so pissed ended up being so super sacarstic and evil.. haiz. STUPID SONG. and stupid me.

suddenly i feel like talking about best friends. LOL.

well. NEVER. i repeat. NEVER. have a best friend.. why? you'll end up to regret it. TRUST ME. experience tells. time tells. its better to NOT have a best friend now then to get HURT by one.. stick with having just good friends. and being too honest or being too secretive can hurt. kaayyyy. i dunno whats wrong with me but yeah. its true okay... like.

for example.

your best friend tells you that ur her 'bestest' friend in the whole wide world.. you THINK that its true. but then. eventually this fantasy would fade. conflicts come in. no matter how you resolve them they remain in your mind. so. you may be forgiving.. but does it work? NO.

lalalla.

like. u know. when you fight.. bad things start blurting out. then you'll both get hurt. eventually? well. both of u say oh its ok.. but. BUT.. you know. temptation comes. and you'll eventually lie to the person EVEN THOUGH publically you say thats your best friend. i mean. you'll never know!. i think. personally. that if you dont have a best friend.you wouldn't have to go through all that even though its necessary for some ppl to mature and GROW UP. [the song starts playingggg]

like.. some ppl take forever to realise their mistakes whereas some would realise and change.. and there's this weird group of ppl who realise their mistake. and DONT change. now. thats a major problem and a high barrier in your life..

WOOO. I FEEL LIKE I JUST GAVE A MOTIVATIONAL SPEECH!! HAHA..

okkk. i've gone crazy. i know you're gonna miss me when ur bored..

..

i know it....

BYE BYE.

i'll leave you time..

to thinkk...

about how long

you're gonna remain bored

without

me..

TO ENTERTAIN YOU!!!
WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. xD

oopppppsss

2007-06-09T21:21:00.000+08:00

heh.. i know i haven't been posting ^^"

okkk. first. ummm.

Friday

night before slept super late.. then smsed jean when i woke up...went to the airport to get my dad. then jean sms me. saying she's back in singapore ^^ then she went to sleep so yeah.. then came home. then. i dunno. cant remember -.-

Yesterday

umm. yesterday... i.. didn't do anything. WAIT. yesterday IS friday.. FORGET IT -.-

kk.. so. rather. today.. hmmm. yeah. today i had tuition.. sorry for not replying like. the load of ppl. cuz i was like . yeah. having tuition.. so anywayy.

GREAT. i dont know what to say... haiz. so sad. going for church camp soon.. and im gonna miss training T_T

o well.. i just feel like talking ..duh. im so bored. what else to do-.-

I WILL POST TMR!. i hope.

bored bored boredd

2007-06-07T17:54:00.000+08:00

lalalala. now OBVIOUSLY i'm bored. xD

i sms jean again last night. HAHAHAHA. but was at about one. ^^

anywayy. today had bowling. i duno. i think i did baddddddddd. played 2 games. 111 and 114. GAH SO HORRIBLE. anyway.. i was super pissed larhs. well. particularly because of *ahem* i shall not mention names.. stupid lahhhhhhh. ugh. -.-

paid charlene and joanna back their $50 for the NAG.. yeah. then.. um.. i was reading the new paper larh. then i saw this article about closure of bowling alleys. OMG LARH.. i had the urge to sms everyone in bowling about it =P

soo.... yeah. then they said about relocating the training at kim seng to yishun?! OMG LARH. and they said that at least 4 to 6 bowling alleys in the central area is gonna closeeee... UGH. then i suddenly remembered about the CCA 'debate' i had with shanice.

WTH LARH. BOWLING IS FUN AND ITS HARD TO PLAY OK. damn. I GOT SO FREAKING PISSED.. JUST BECAUSE YOU DONT DO WELL AT BOWLING DOESNT MEAN YOU HAVE TO CRITICIZE IT. NEITHER DO YOU HAVE TO SAY IT SUCKS. UR FREAKING ST JOHN IS GOOD TO YOU.. IT MEANS THAT BOWLING IS GOOD TO ME TOO. HELL YOU DONT MAKE FUN OF BOWLING. YOU THINK THAT UR ST JOHN IS OH-SO-GOOD. YEAH SO? TO YOU AND THOSE IN IT. BUT TO OTHERS IT ISN'T. SAME APPLIES TO BOWLING U MORON. HECK I CAN TELL YOU ONE MILLION TIMES THAT BOWLING IS FUN.GOOD.AND SPECIAL TO ME OKAY. IF YOU THINK BOWLING IS THAT EASY. COME BOWL WITH ME LARH! I KNOW YOU WON'T DARE TO. WHY? BECAUSE YOU SUCK AT IT AND YOU KNOW IM GONNA BEAT YOU. SO. DONT ASSUME BOWLING IS JUST THROWING A BALL DOWN THE LANE. IT NEEDS PROFESSIONALISM.

ugh. sry about that but im seriously getting pissed..

PLEASE LARH.

... i feel like telling the whole world off right now...

ifonlyyouunderstood.
iwouldnthavetotellyouoffthisway.

ok.. i'll stop.. then i came home. talked to fann on the phone. for about what? 2 and a half hours?. dunno. was complaining about bowling >< and she was telling me about her french horn. so yeah.. AT LEAST FANN CAN ACCEPT BOWLING UNLIKE YOU WHO JUST DOESNT APPRECIATE IT.

-.-

i know im going crazy any moment.

and i finally realised what geog worksheet it is .. gosh i thought i lost it or something. but apparently fann lied. but she told me its found in asknlearn. -.-"

haiz. ok luhs.. I MISS JEANNNN. GAHHHHH.

man. i so dont want to watch movies. so sick of it alr -.-"

ARGH. IVE GOT CHURCH CAMP NXT WEEK AND IM GONNA MISS TRAINING BECAUSE OF THAT.

im sharing room with deborah for camp. lalalaa. wanted to share with charmaine too. but her parents didn't allow and aren't free. SO SADD T_T

haiz. im so gonna bring my homework there. -.-

maybe i'll get inspiration for my storybook. hmmm... maybe. just maybe.

haiz. im GOING CRAZY..

.. no. i am.

I AM CRAZY.

anyway. 1PE..REMEMBER TO BRING UR HYDROPONIC STUFF ON THE FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL.. yeah ok i've gone mad.

..

...

....

.....

......

ok i'll stop.. bye

movies movies moviess

2007-06-06T13:41:00.000+08:00

gahh. yuching smsed me and asked if it was tracey's bday today -.-"

so. HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY/BIRTHDAY to RACHEL THNG AND TRACEY [nosurnametobeincudedotherwisedeathmayoccur].

yeeah. and i'm so sick of movies. seriously -.-"

last night watced shrek3 with my mum and bro. so funny =P

then sms jean at 2am cuz was watching dvd. then contiued watching and didn't sleep. LOL

yesterday had guitar larhs. then went to food court to eat. then received a call frm *ahem* unknown. then a short while later receved a call frm jo while was talking to unknown. scary sia.

anyway.. nothing much larhs. tmr gt bowling training. man its gonna be so weird -.-" as in. ah. nvmmm

holdonifufeelikelettinggo
holdonitsgetsbetterthanuknow
dontstoplooking
you'reonestepclose
dntstopsearching
itsnotover
___________

whenithinkaboutmylife
iwonderifiwillsurviveto
livetoseetill25
orwillifall
___________

When I think about my life
I wonder if I will survive to live to see in 25
or will I just fall?
Like all my friends, they just keep dying
People 'round me always crying
In this place that I like to call my home

Not everybody knows that everybody goes to a better place
Not everybody knows that everyone could be living their last days

But the hard times will come, and we'll keep movin' on, we're movin' up
Keep movin' on
Life,
Hope,
Truth,
Trust,
Faith,
Pride,
Love,
Lust

On without the things we've lost
The things we've gained we'll take with us

And all I've got are these two hands to make myself a better man
I wonder if I'll ever see the end of this
With all this rain it just keeps falling
On my head and now I'm calling
Out to someone else to help me make it through

Not everybody knows that everybody goes to a better place
Not everybody knows that everyone could be living their last days

But the hard times will come, and we'll keep movin' on, we're movin' up
Keep movin' on
Life,
Hope,
Truth,
Trust,
Faith,
Pride,
Love,
Lust,
Pain,
Hate,
Lies,
Kill,
Laugh,
Cry,
Live,
Die

Some friends become enemies
Some friends become your family
Make the best with what you're given
This ain't dying
This is living!

Said we're movin' on, and we got nothing to prove
To anyone
'cause we'll get through
We're movin' on and on and on and on...
Keep movin' on
Life,
Hope,
Truth,
Trust,
Faith,
Pride,
Love,
Lust,
Pain,
Hate,
Lies,
Kill,
Laugh,
Cry,
Live,
Die

Some friends become enemies
Some friends become your family
Make the best with what you're given
This ain't dying
This is living!

friendly match

2007-06-05T15:09:00.000+08:00

i know its late larhs. but arh.. i forgot to say.

the friendly match was held at safra mt faber. then when i entered the bowling alley. WA LAO SO DAMN IT COLD.. then another thing i noted was. THE WHOLE PLACE WAS ORANGE.

am i just unlucky or what?

then played with jo's psp. lol. need for speed most wanted. MAN THAT ROCKS. and mine's better than hers. lol.

then during the match keejia was showing signs of obsession with michelle. LOL. so funny xD

and i made a remarkable discovery [so says keejia].. which is. the ceiling of the bowling alley is super dirty. why? because it was all black and dotted. but. at the areas next to the aircon with the plastic strap thingg.. the ceiling was white there.. hahahaha

then jo blowed into her chocolate milk packet. then all the milk splated out. lucky wasn't very wet.. then we were so cold so went to borrow jackets frm peiyi and mars. heh. then hwee ting was so.. like. sorta. sad the whole time larhs.. then i felt the urge to start talking alot of crap. but couldn't find anyone to talk crap to -.-"

and keejia kept going to the toilett. she was like "i need to pee" every game .. LOL SO FUNNY xD

andd.. she kept trying to get herself depressed by looking at the score board. haha...

hmmmm. what else... oh yeah. then i had so many ppl smsing me / calling me. telling me that kim seng is gonna en bloc.. like YES I ALREADY KNOW THAT. then i came back and complained to the genie. bleh. now im under the genie's mercy .. T_T

then charlene was telling me about how there were only 9 ppl durin training and that they were all sec1.. haha. oh yeahh. i went to great world for my lunch and justine, her sis and her mum walked past the car in the carpark and i was OUT of the car. -.-" amazing how she didn't see me..

then i was playing that chinese song thingg. yeahh. then i thought of jean leavinggg T____T

and nat and i just smsed her. hehh.. but she wont reply larhss.

im thinking hw im gonna play guitar later when my fingers hurt like crazy....

gahhh.. and i sound too obsessed with jean. but yeah. its one less person to complain to. one less person to talk to. one less person to talk to me. one less person to hear. one less person to care.. lalalalala. FINGER HURTS. T_T

FINGER HURTS.
MISS YOU JEAN.
NICE BLOGSKIN NAT.
AS LONG AS YOU TRIED YOUR BEST CHARLENE.
GO GET UR FREAKING MUSIC STAND AND STOP ROARING AT ME FANN.
HELLO GENIE.
MISSING SINGAPORE HANNAH?
GUITAR CLASS STOPPED ME FROM GOING OUT WITH RACHEL Y. AND YUCHING AND BLAH.
I WANT A CLASS GATHERING!! [BOTH 6H AND 1PE]-[I KNOW IM DEMANDING]

ok i'll stop being so crazy..

sadddd

2007-06-05T12:04:00.000+08:00

sobbb... jean's gone.. T_T.. my middle and ring fingers on my left have internal bleeding. damnit pain..

and i just realised this is my 109 post alr. haha.

就算没有明天
-黄晓明 & 孙俪

俪：永远有多远　我心已疲倦
　只叹缘分太浅　梦不能圆

明：再拥抱一遍　哪怕是瞬间
　停格的画面　能不能抵抗思念

俪：我们之间　会不会有明天
　　炽热的缠绵能否重新上演
　　就算天一边　沧海成桑田
　　那些誓言　还在人世流连

明：我们之间　就算没有明天
　　回忆再明显　终究消散成云烟
　　用青春容颜　去交换爱恋
　　我也情愿

俪：永远有多远　我心已疲倦
　　只叹缘分太浅　梦不能圆

明：再拥抱一遍　哪怕是瞬间
　　停格的画面　能不能抵抗思念

俪：我们之间　会不会有明天
　　炽热的缠绵能否重新上演
　　就算天一边　沧海成桑田
　　那些誓言　还在人世流连

明：我们之间　就算没有明天
　　回忆再明显　终究消散成云烟
　　用青春容颜　去交换爱恋
　　我也情愿

合：我们之间　会不会有明天
　　炽热的缠绵能否重新上演
　　就算天一边　沧海成桑田
　　那些誓言　还在人世流连

合：我们之间　就算没有明天
　　回忆再明显　终究消散成云烟
　　用青春容颜　去交换爱恋
　　我也情愿 (我也情愿) 无悔无怨

I LOVE THIS SONGGG.. AHHHH. its like. from a chinese show larhss. but its SO NICEEE T_T and i took so long to find the lyrics -.-". BUT EITHER WAYS. I LOVE THE SONGGG. and i'm so happy cuz i found the video on youtube. heh ^^

so.. yeahhh. SEE THE VIDEO. omg its so nice larhs.. i see the show then they played the song then.. i cried o_____o.. i know its so wrong but ITS SO NICEEEE ><

kk. i'll stop ranting. LOL.

newww bloggskinn!

2007-06-04T21:20:00.000+08:00

hahahahaha.. im sure u've noticed the BIG picture. and the NEW blogskin. HAHAHAHA.

hope u had fun finding the navigations xD

anywayy.

JEAN'S GOING AWAY TMR. AHHHH.. NAT'S GOING AWAY FRM 18 - 22.. AHHHHHHHHHHH... CRAP IT!!

today's friendly match wasn't good.. haiz. for me. i go 90. then 106. then 139. T_T... haiz.

so many things to say but i dont wanna say it.
so many things bottled up inside and just cant be freed.

argh. so bored...

jean i'll miss you!

2007-06-03T22:42:00.000+08:00

heh.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOSHUA.

lol. its my bro's bday today...

mann. jean's going away... T___T.. IM GONNA MISS YA!!

gahhhh. likeee. when she comes back. a few days later i'm goingg for church camp. no. to be exact.. its just.. like... 1 day later!!GAHHHHHHHHHHHH... im not sure if nat knows.. i'll tell her anyway.

i made a blogskin for nat. giving to her tmr... GAHHHHHHHHH

mannn. im missing jean so badly. anddddddddddd.. ANDDDDDDDDD. nat's not going anywhere so its ok. LOL. no larhs. im so mean. aiyaaaaaa.. then after that when jean comes back she's going away again.. just because her mum wants to go somewhere and her dad wants to go somewhere else.. then she has to travel twice.. haiz.. so poor thing oneee..

EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEeee.. nat's gonna be so miserable when we're both away.. lol. she's so gonna miss us. O MAN... I DONT GET TO SEE YOU GUYS AGAIN UNTIL SCHOOL REOPENS!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!..lets meet up again
beggedmenottodowhatiknewihadto
becauseofthatonereason
whichisbecaueiloveyou
onelasttime.pleasedontcry.
idontknowwrongfromright.
alliknowisthatiloveyoutonight.
ohmylove.idontknowmuchatall.
justtonight...

BLOODY VALENTINE!

2007-06-03T15:41:00.001+08:00

lalallalalaaa. I HAVE OFFICIALLY GONE CRAZYYYYY..

and arhs many of u been asking me if i'm in love.. YES I AM IN LOVE WITH THE SONG.GOT A PROBLEM?!

LALALALALALALLA. i've been crazyyy for the pastttt.. 4 days.no.. FIVE.. WOOOO

i'll wash my bloody hands and
we'll start a new life...
i dont know much at all
i dont know wrong from right
all i know is that i love you tonight...
_________________

hard days made me
hard nights shaped me
i dont know they somehow save me
and i know i'm making something
out of this life they call nothing

i take what i want
i take what i need
you say it's wrong but it's right for me

i won't look down
won't say i'm sorry
i know that only God can judge me

and if i make it thru today
will tomorrow be the same
am i just running in place?
if i stubble and i fall
should i get up and carry on
or will it all just be the same
________________

you know the happiest day of my life
i swear the happiest day of my life is the day that i die
can you feel the cold tonight?
it sets in but it's alright
darkness falls i'm letting go
all alone but i feel fine
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nothing!

2007-06-02T23:41:00.000+08:00

nothing much todayy. just at home doing NOTHING the whole day. bleh. last night slept at like 4.30 and woke up at about 8 with so many ppl smsing me for i-dont-know-what reason...

super tired. but yeah.. i'm in love with my bloody valentine.. the song so nice larhss!. i shall post the lyrics AGAIN. =P

My Bloody Valentine

Oh, my love, please don't cry
I'll wash my bloody hands and we'll start a new life
I ripped out his throat
And called you on the telephone to take off my disguise
Just in time to hear you cry
When you mourn the death of your bloody valentine
The night he died
You mourned the death of your bloody valentine
One last time
Singing...
Oh my love please don't cry I'll wash my bloody hands
And we'll start a new life
I don't know much at all, I don't know wrong from right
All I know is that I love you tonight
There was...
Police and flashing lights
The rain came down so hard that night and the
Headlines read "a lover died"
No tell-tale heart was left to find
When you mourn the death of your bloody valentine
The night he died
You mourned the death of your bloody valentine
One last time
Singing...
Oh my love please don't cry I'll wash my bloody hands
And we'll start a new life
I don't know much at all, I don't know wrong from right
All I know is that I love you tonight
Tonight...
He dropped you off I followed him home
Then I stood outside his bedroom window
Standing over him he begged me not to do
What I knew I had to do 'cause I'm so in love with you
Oh my love please don't cry I'll wash my bloody hands
And we'll start a new life
I don't know much at all, I don't know wrong from right
All I know is that I love you tonight
Tonight...

genie?

2007-06-01T21:40:00.000+08:00

greeat.. JUST GREAT. i've got super-random-and-weird genie O_O.. NO JOKE!

genie : i grant you 3 wishes. wish wisely
me : i wanna skip my guitar class on tues
genie : granted. however, u will get scolded by ur mother. second wish.
me : i wanna skip guitar lesson WITHOUT getting scolded by ANYONE
genie : granted. ur mother will turn into an object and then she will scold you. so you will be scolded by a thing and she will pop back into a person. third wish.
me : i wanna do well for the friendly match on monday.
genie : u will do well. at least for my expectations.

HOW GREAT RIGHT? .. AMAZING GENIE THERE ..

and later one genie went *poof* then went offline. WONDERFUL. and suddenly came on and went haha... -.-"

haiz..

freak

2007-06-01T21:20:00.000+08:00

aiya. dun wanna go guitar nxt week lehs. scarely get scolded cuz didn't go this week..

monday - friendly match
tuesday - guitar lesson
wednesday - going out
thursday - training
friday - [luckily] nothing
saturday - not sure
sunday - church
monday - church camp
tuesday - church camp
wednesday - church camp
thursday - church camp
friday - nothing

aiya.. who am i kidding? the holidays are so short.. and i still gotta do homework...

anyway. jean's going away for abt 5 days. GAHHHH. =X

andddd. fann is going "roar" at me on msn right now. -.-"

oh yeah. and also "dang it".

haiz...

aiya. only did the intro for storybook.. still got a long way to go. finished maths. and still gotta file geog. think i lost some worksheets =S

anywayyyy... oh. i almost forgot about chinese. man i've gotta find that paper telling us what to do. and i cant find my hist wb.. BLEH. and HOW DO I DO MY HEALTH-IN-MOTION -.-

nvm. i'll find a way..

hopefully.

cip!

2007-06-01T15:52:00.000+08:00

haha. i did cip with hannah again today.. did 4 hours.. and it was so fun we wanted to stay even longer. hahaha. the librarians r so nice!!!!

hahaa. and just by doing cip, i already walked a total of 14720 steps. GREAT EH?.. xD

anywayyy.. i finally managed to talk to jean on the phone. gosh. its been like FOREVER. -.-"

was talking to yuching larhs. then jean said she was gonna call. then we talked.. then i was talking to.. wait. i cant remember.. who cares.. think it was nat. yeah. then i talked to fann. then i received an sms "are you free now?".. from shanice. like SHE DOES THAT EVERY NIGHT. and she very well knows we're gonna end up fighting!

yes. and we were fighting about our cca's once again. gosh. i cant knock it into her head that bowling rocks!! she insists that st john is better larhs. and was showing off its "professionalism"... likee. AS IF BOWLING IS EASY LARH.. gosh. if it was easy then the whole world would be called pro bowlers and get perfect games.. ppl wanna learn bowling.. just that they dont have the chance to. and i bet she probably was just jealous that i bowl so much better than her.

and she was saying that she prefers queensway to rgps. WTH LARH..and to think she complains more.. haiz.and she said that scgs sucks and is worse in EVERYWAY and would lose in EVERYTHING to queensway? WTH LAR. THATS PLAIN CRAP!!!

and we 'debated' for about.. 2 hours i think. or one and a half. man it was tiring...

PLEASE LARH..

nvm i'll stop. and and and. YOU MUST LISTEN TO MY BLOODY VALENTINE! its so nice larhs xD.. yaayaaya. GOOD CHARLOTTE ROCKS!!! =P

lol. yeah yeah yeah. man. i'm so bored now.. maths.gosh. so many worksheets....

and my bro's bday is coming up. gonna have a feast of junk food?.. well. no money for some restaurant..

haha. anywayyy. i shall start on my storybook today.. otherwise i'm gonna suffer later ><

YUCHING.. I AM NOT A GUAIKIA!!!

2007-05-31T14:43:00.001+08:00

sorry about all the lyrics and all. but really larhs. ITS NICE OKAY!!

say anything

2007-05-31T14:37:00.000+08:00

Here I am on
The phone again, and
Awkward silence is
On the other end

I used to know the sound
Of a smile in your voice
But right now (right now)
All I feel (All I feel)
Is the pain of the fighting
Starting up again

All the things we talk about
You know they stay on my mind
On my mind

All the things we laugh about
They'll bring us through it every time
After time after time

Don't say a word
I know you feel the same
Just give me a sign
Say anything, say anything

Please don't walk away
I know you wanna stay
Just give me a sign
Say anything, say anything

Some say that
Time changes
Best friends can
Become strangers

But I don't want that
No, not for you
If you just stay with me, we can make it through

So
Here we are again
The same old argument
And now I'm wonderin'
If things'll ever change, yeah

When will you laugh again?
Laugh like you did back when
We'd make noise til 3 AM and the neighbors would complain

All the things we talk about
You know they stay on my mind
On my mind

All the things we laugh about
They'll bring us through it every time
After time after time

Don't say a word
I know you feel the same
Just give me a sign
Say anything, say anything

Please don't walk away
I know you wanna stay
Just give me a sign
Say anything, say anything

I'm fallin'
I'm fallin'
I'm fallin' down

I'm fallin'
I'm fallin'
I'm fallin' down

Down
Down
Down

Don't say a word
I know you feel the same
Just give me a sign
Say anything, say anything

Please don't walk away
I know you wanna stay
If you'll just give me a sign
Say anything, say anything

Don't say a word (Please don't leave)
I know you feel the same
Just give me a sign
Say anything, say anything

Please don't walk away (Please don't leave)
I know you wanna stay
Just give me a sign
Say anything, say anything

hold on

2007-05-31T14:33:00.000+08:00

This world
This world is cold
But you don't
You don't have to go

You're feeling sad, you're feeling lonely, and no one seems to care
Your mother's gone and your father hits you
This pain you cannot bear

But we all bleed the same way as you do
And we all have the same things to go through

Hold on if you feel like letting go
Hold on it gets better than you know

Your days
You say they're way too long
And your nights
You can't sleep at all
Hold on

And you're not sure what you're waiting for,
but you don't want to know more
And you're not sure what you're looking for,
but you don't want to know more

But we all bleed the same way as you do
And we all have the same things to go through

Hold on if you feel like letting go
Hold on it gets better than you know

Don't stop looking, you're one step closer
Don't stop searching, it's not over
Hold on

What are you looking for?
What are you waiting for?
Do you know what you're doing to me?
Go ahead...
What are you waiting for?

Hold on if you feel like letting go
Hold on it gets better than you know

Don't stop looking, you're one step closer
Don't stop searching, it's not over

Hold on if you feel like letting go
Hold on it gets better than you know

Hold on

my bloody valentine

2007-05-31T14:29:00.000+08:00

Oh, my love
Please don't cryI
'll wash my bloody hands and
We'll start a new life

I ripped out
His throat
And called you on the telephone
To take off
My disguise
Just in time to hear you cry when you...

You mourn the death of your bloody valentine
The night he died
You mourn the death of your bloody valentine
One last time

Singin'...

Oh, my love
Please don't cry
I'll wash my bloody hands and
We'll start a new life

I don't know much at all
I don't know wrong from right
All I know is that I love you tonight

There was
Police and
Flashing lights
The rain came down so hard that night and the
Headlines read
A lover died
No tell-tale heart was left to find when you...

You mourn the death of your bloody valentine
The night he died
You mourn the death of your bloody valentine
One last time

Singin'...
Oh, my love
Please don't cry
I'll wash my bloody hands and
We'll start a new life

I don't know much at all
I don't know wrong from right
All I know is that I love you tonight

Tonight

He dropped you off, I followed him home
Then I, I stood outside his bedroom window
Standing over him, he begged me not to do
What I knew I had to do cause I'm so in love with you

Oh, my love
Please don't cry
I'll wash my bloody hands and
We'll start a new life

I don't know much at allI
don't know wrong from right
All I know is that I love you tonight

Tonight

the story of my old man

2007-05-31T14:26:00.000+08:00

I don't know too much about too much of my old man
I know he walked right out the door, we never saw him again
Last I heard he was at the bar, doin' himself in
I know I got that same disease, I guess I got that from him

This is the story of my old man
Just like his father before him
I'm tellin' you, do anything you can
So you don't end up just like them
Like them

Monday he woke up and hated life
Drank until Wednesday and left his wife
Thursday through Saturday he lost everything
Woke up on Sunday, miserable again

I remember baseball games and workin' on the car
Told me that he loved me and that I would go far
Showed me how to work hard and stick up for myself
I wish he wasn't too hard to listen to himself

This is the story of my old man
Just like his father before him
I'm tellin' you, do anything you can
So you don't end up just like them
Like them

Monday he woke up and hated life
Drank until Wednesday and left his wife
Thursday through Saturday he lost everything
Woke up on Sunday, miserable again
Again

Again

Someday he'll wish that he made things right (made things right)
Long for his family and miss his wife (miss his wife)
Remember the days he had everything (everything)
Now he's alone and miserable again

wondering

2007-05-31T14:21:00.000+08:00

If you want me to wait
I will wait for you
If you tell me to stay
I would stay right through

If you don't wanna say
Anything at all
I'm happy wondering

Since I was a young man
I never was a fun man
I never had a plan and no security
Then ever since i met you
I never could forget you
I only wanna get you right here next to me

Cause everybody
Needs someone that they can trust and
You're somebody
That I found just in time

If you want me to wait
I would wait for you
If you tell me to stay
I would stay right through

If you don't wanna say
Anything at all
I'm happy wondering

Now my life is changing
It's always rearranging
It's always getting stranger than I thought it ever could

Ever since I found you
I wanna be around you
I wanna get down to the point that I need you

Cause everybody
Needs someone that they can trust and
You're somebody
That I found just in time

If you want me to wait
I would wait for you
If you tell me to stay
I would stay right through

If you don't wanna say
Anything at all
I'm happy wondering

Don't tell me
The bad news
Don't tell me anything at all
Just tell me
That you need me
And stay right here with me

If you want me to wait
I would wait for you
If you tell me to stay
I would stay right through

If you don't wanna say
Anything at all
I'm happy wondering

If you want me to wait
I would wait for you
If you tell me to stay
I would stay right through

If you don't wanna say
Anything at all
I'm happy wondering

movin' on

2007-05-31T14:16:00.000+08:00

When I think about my life I wonder if I will survive
To live to see 25 or will I just fall?
Like all my friends, they just keep dying.
People round me, always crying.
In this place that I like to call my home.

Not everybody knows that everybody goes to a better place
Not everybody knows that everybody could be living their last days
But the hard times will come, and we'll keep moving on.
We're moving on.
Keep moving on Life.
Hope.
Truth.
Trust.
Faith.
Pride.
Love.
Lust.
On without the things we've lost but things we've gained we'll take with us.

And all I've got are these two hands to make myself a better man
I wonder if I'll ever see the end of this
With all this rain it just keeps falling
On my head and now I'm calling
Out to someone else to help me make it through

Not everybody knows that everybody goes to a better place
Not everybody knows that everybody could be living their last days
But the hard times will come, and we'll keep moving on.
We're moving on.
Keep moving on
Life.
Hope.
Truth.
Trust.
Faith.
Pride.
Love.
Lust.
Pain.
Hate.
Lies.
Guilt.
Laugh.
Cry.
Live.
Die.
Some friends become enemies some friends become your family
Make the best with what you're givin
This ain't dying this is livin

Said were movin on and we've got nothin to prove
To anyone
Cause we'll get through
Were movin on and on and on and on and on and on and on....
Keep movin on
Life.
Hope.
Truth.
Trust.
Faith.
Pride.
Love.
Lust.
Pain.
Hate.
Lies.
Guilt.
Laugh.
Cry.
Live.
Die.
Some friends become enemies some friends become your family
Make the best with what you're givin
This ain't dying! this is livin!

lifestyles of the rich and famous

2007-05-31T14:13:00.000+08:00

Always see it on t.v.
Or read it in the magazines
Celebrities who want sympathy

All they do is piss and moan
Inside the rolling stone
Talkin' about how hard life can be

I'd like to see them spend a week
Livin' life out on the street
I don't think they would survive

If they could spend a day or two
Walkin' in someone else's shoes
I think they'd stumble and they'd fall
They would fall... (fall)

Lifestyles of the rich and the famous
They're always complainin'
Always complainin'...
If money is such a problem
Well they've got mansions
Think we should rob them

Well did you know when you were famous you could kill your wife
And there's no such thing as 25 to life
As long as you've got the cash, to pay for Cochran

And did you know if you were caught and you were smokin' crack
McDonalds wouldn't even wanna take you back
You could always just run for mayor of D.C.

I'd like to see them spend a week
Livin' life out on the street
I don't think they would survive

If they could spend a day or two
Walking in someone else's shoes
I think they'd stumble and they'd fall
they would fall

Lifestyles of the rich and the famous
They're always complainin'
Always complainin'...
If money is such a problem
Well they've got mansions
Think we should rob them(Fall)

Lifestyles of the rich and the famous
They're always complainin'
Always complainin'...
If money is such a problem
They've got so many problems
Think I could solve them

Lifestyles of the rich and famous
We'll take your clothes, cash, cars and homes just stop complainin'
Lifestyles of the rich and famous...
Lifestyles of the rich and famous...

Lifestyles of the rich and famous

the day that i die

2007-05-31T14:09:00.000+08:00

One day I woke up'
I woke up knowing
Today is the dayI will die

Cashdogg was barking
Went to the park and enjoyed it one last time
I called my mother, told her I loved her
And I begged her not to cry

I wrote a letter
I said I'd miss her
And I signed that Goodbye

You know the happiest day of my life
I swear the happiest day of my life
Is the day that I die

Can you feel the cold tonight (the day that I die)
It sets in, but it's alright (the day that I die)
Darkness falls, I'm letting go (the day that I die)
All alone but I feel fine

We took a drive and we drove through D.C.
To see the places we lived, long conversations
We talked of old friends and all the things that we did

The summer nights
Drunken fights
Mistakes we made
Did we live it right

You know the happiest day of my life
I swear the happiest day of my life
Is the day that I die

Can you feel the cold tonight? (the day that I die)
It sets in, but it's alright (the day that I die)
Darkness falls, I'm letting go (the day that I die)
All alone but I feel just fine

You know the happiest day of my life
I know the happiest day of my life
I swear the happiest day of my life
Is the day that I die

Can you feel the cold tonight? (the day that I die)
It sets in, but it's alright (the day that I die)
Darkness falls, I'm letting go (the day that I die)
All alone but I feel fine

Did I live it right,
I hope I lived it right, (the day that I die)
Did I live it right? (the day that I die)
Did I live it right,
I hope I lived it right, (the day that I die)

I know I lived it right

the young and the hopeless

2007-05-31T14:04:00.000+08:00

Hard days made me
Hard nights shaped me
I don't know they somehow saved me
And I know I'm making something out of this life they call nothing

I take what I want
take what I need
they say it's wrong, but it's right for me

I won't look down
Won't say I'm sorry
I know that only God can judge me

And if I make it through today
Will tomorrow be the same
Am I just running in place
And if I stumble and I fall
Should I get up and carry on
Will it all just be the same

Cause I'm young and I'm hopeless
I'm lost and I know this
I'm going nowhere fast that's what they say
I'm troublesome I've fallen
I'm angry at my father
it's me against this world and I don't care
I don't care

And no one in this industry
understands the life I lead
when I sing about my past
it's not a gimmick, not an act
These critics, and these trust fund kids
try to tell me what punk is
but when I see them on the street they got nothing to say

And if I make it through today
Will tomorrow be the same
Am I just running in place
And if I stumble and I fall
Should I get up and carry on
Will it all just be the same

Cause I'm young and I'm hopeless
I'm lost and I know this
I'm going nowhere fast that's what they say
I'm troublesome I've fallen
I'm angry at my father
it's me against this world and I don't care
I don't care
I don't care...

and now I don't care

I'm young and I'm hopeless
I'm lost and I know this
I'm going nowhere fast that's what they say
that I'm troublesome I've fallen
I'm angry at my father
it's me against this world and
I don't care
I don't care.
I don't care.

I don't care.

opps

2007-05-31T11:14:00.000+08:00

hehs. i know i haven't been posting.. i'm just LAZY... ^^"

Tuesday

had science. and mr sim made me in charge of hydroponics?.... then jean followed me home. and nat came after that. then we took a cab to newton mrt station thinking sam was there waiting for us.but who knew she was supposed to go to school?..

then we went to cineleisure. and met nat's mum.. heh. then went to buy movie tickets for potc3. i know i had already watched it but doesn't matter =P

then we came down and waited for sam. she came in her sch uni. jean too. but i changed. then..we went to eat at pasta mania. oh. i forgot to mention that we saw wenn er . we were like. WHAT IS SHE DOING HERE?. lol.

anw. the lunch was just.. lets just say.. weird. jean nat and i ate the same thing.. including drinks. and the drink was mocha iced. EW LARH. it had mashed coffee beans inside. but it tasted like pepper to me -.-"

then jean spilled her pasta over her uni so i followed her to the toilet to change.

after that we went to take neoprint. was fun larhss.

then we went to watch the movie. jean kept telling me she wanna sleep.. and nat was so engrossed.. and we kept passing the popcorn going left and right. haha. oh yeah. we sat at the back.. and in the center. so had a nice view.. heh.

we sat in this order from left to right : sam, jean, me, nat.

so yeah.. then we waited for the credits to end to watch that small part more... i was super late for my guitar lesson by then so i didn't go ^^"

then we went to heeren. gahs. took neoprints. TWICE. lol.. then we walked about. OH YEAH. before we left cineleisure .. bought famous amos cookies.. NICE NICE NICE. =P

yeah.then by the time we went to the mrt station at wisma.. it was alr 6+ larhss!.. jean and i got off at newton then took 171 home together..

yeah. i think thats all?

Yesterday

yesterday i did cip at marina parade. that library. wtv its called. i did with hannah.. the night before she asked me if i was free and wanted to do with her.

then went there. was fun larhs .. the librarians were nice and showed us how to shelve the books and stuff.. i love shelving the magazines. WAS SO EASY. unlike the children's books -.-

anywayy. then we saw the dewy decimal system being used for the fiction books. lol...and the information books too.. apparently mrs quek was right about the skill being important.. ^^"

yeah. then i came home. and went out for dinner.. like. yeah. cuz my mum's going overseas. so had a HUGE DINNER. man i felt like exploding =X

and today.. hmm. nothing much YET. =P

my bro's bday is coming up soon.. gotta get him something. and yuching IM NOT A GUAIKIA OK.

and fann's avg number of steps for a week is 8070.1. mine's 14171.1. thats because i've been going out lately while fann stays at home more yeah?

hehs. OK I'LL STOP. no wait. u know i FINALLY got hold of young and hopeless by good charlotte. GOSH. -.-

HAPPY HAPPY. but BORED -.-

bowling

2007-05-28T22:12:00.000+08:00

had bowling training in the morning... and like. about9.10.. charlene called me using fishy's hp. told me i'm late. YEAH RIGHT. it starts at 9.30.. and i pranked them back.

i sent an sms. "i am at great world now".. to fishy.. and "with my mum.MUAHAHAHHA" to charlene.. well. charlene got creeped out cuz she's scared of my mum. LOL..

yeah. training ROCKED TODAY!! YEAH IT DID. i played 3 games.. 2 of which was because i stayed back. scores are as follows : 140, 149, 123..

YES I KNOW ITS GOOD. STOP PRAISING ME!... hahaha kidding.. =P

and.. i've to report to safra mt faber by 9 nxt mon for the friendly match against acjc.. blehs.

and charlene was so high today larhs.. like literally siao.. and shanice kept saying hi to me xD

anddd.. i kept saying hi to peiyi. LOL.

andd.... i dunno larhs..

i'm just crazy.

and well.. i'll help... help someone vent anger on someone else...

you know that you're wrong but yet you still do it..
you know that no matter what u do u cant compensate..

you copied everyone
you thought it was cool
too bad for u..
because everyone knows what u've done

you just thought it was all ok
you thought it doesn't matter
but too bad..
everyone knows it... you cant hide

even those above you..
even those just next to you
even those far away
.. they all know

you chose this path of condemnation yourself
everyone doesn't like you
including your attitude
change it. it may be for the better.

but watch what you do
because everyone knows that you'v just been copying
and lying
thinking that you're oh-so-smart when you're not

i know its direct
i know you know who
but too bad for you
as said before.. everyone knows..

why did you still do it?
when you know that everyone hates you?
when you know nothing is going to come out of it?
why?

why are you wasting your time?
copying others.. cheating..
why are you walking the wrong path?
i'm sure you did it deliberately
you cant tell me you didn't

proof lies everywhere
and you know it too. its next to you. you can see it. you know what you've done. but no you won't admit it.

this is how i disappear

2007-05-27T18:02:00.000+08:00

To un-explain the unforgivable,
Drain all the blood and give the kids a show.
By streetlight this dark night,
A seance down below.
There're things that I have done,
You never should ever know!

And without you is how I disappear,
And live my life alone forever now.
And without you is how I disappear,
And live my life alone forever now.

Who walks among the famous living dead,
Drowns all the boys and girls inside your bed.
And if you could talk to me,
Tell me if it's so,
That all the good girls go to heaven.
Well, heaven knows

That without you is how I disappear,
And live my life alone forever now.
And without you is how I disappear,
And live my life alone forever now.

Can you hear me cry out to you?
Words I thought I'd choke on figure out.
I'm really not so with you anymore.
I'm just a ghost,
So I can't hurt you anymore,

So I can't hurt you anymore.

And now, you wanna see how far down I can sink?
Let me go, ****!
So, you can, well now so, you can
I'm so far away from you.
Well now so, you can.

And without you is how I disappear,
And without you is how I disappear,
(And without you is how I disappear)
(And without you... is how.. is how)
Forever, forever now!

i don't love you

2007-05-27T17:57:00.000+08:00

Well, when you go
Don't ever think
I'll make you try to stay
And maybe when you get back
I'll be off to find another way

And after all this time that you still owe
You're still the good-for-nothing
I don't know
So take your gloves and get out
Better get out
While you can

When you go
Would you even turn to say
"I don't love you like I did yesterday"

Sometimes I cry so hard from pleading
So sick and tired of all the needless beating
But baby when they knock you
Down and out
It's where you oughta stay

And after all the blood that you still owe
Another dollar's just another blow
So fix your eyes and get up
Better get up
While you can

When you go
Would you even turn to say
"I don't love you like I did yesterday"

Well come on, come on

When you go
Would you have the guts to say
"I don't love you like I loved you yesterday"

I don't love you
Like I loved you
Yesterday

I don't love you
Like I loved you
Yesterday

all back

2007-05-27T17:49:00.000+08:00

Take a look at my life, all black
Take a look at my clothes, all black
Like Johnny Cash, all black
Like the Rolling Stones wanna paint it black

The night we met, all black
The colour of your dress, all black
The seats in my Cadillac, all black

As long as I could remember I dreamed in black and white
As I grew up and the sun went down I never felt more alright
My mother she use to tell me...Son you better get to church
And its a dark world and the people out there and you know its only getting worse
Never been much for weddings or anniversaries but I go to a funeral if I'm invited any day of the week
Some people say I sound strange some say I'm not right
But I find beauty in this world every single night

Take a look at my life, all black
Take a look at my clothes, all black
Like Johnny Cash, all black
Like the Rolling Stones wanna paint it black

The night we met, all black
The colour of your dress, all black
The seats in my Cadillac, all black
I used to see red, but now just all black

I sat down at her table at the end of the night
She was having black coffee and a cigarette, she wasn't wearing white
She said, people tell me that I am strange that I am not right
The only time I feel alright is in the dead of night
I think I found the one for me

Take a look at my life, all black
Take a look at my clothes, all black
Like Johnny Cash, all black
Like the Rolling Stones wanna paint it black

The night we met, all black
The colour of your dress, all black
The seats in my Cadillac, all black

I remember feeling so alive
The night I look into her eyes,
Take a look at my life...

ooppss

2007-05-27T16:51:00.000+08:00

hehs. i forgot and accidentally published the post. but nvm.. i'm too lazy to edit it. lol

soo... yesterday.. i watched pirates of the carribean.. gah. sorry shanice. sorry nat. i can always watch again and again with u guys. =X

anyway. yesterday arhs... hmmm... nothing much larhs.. had tuition. then was fixing a 2k piece puzzle...

then. oh yeahs. i know i'm SUPER LATE TO SAY THIS. but who cares..

BYEBYE MS CHEONG! I'LL MISS UR FUN HISTORY LESSONS.. AND I'LL MISS YOU TOO! XD

[omggg. i typed so much and blogger said it cant be posted. OMG LARH SO PISSED NOW]

ok... and i saw ms lin on friday. LALALLA...

and yesterday was boring larhs. didn't do much. had tuition. was fixing this 2k piece jigsaw ... super hard... then watched movie..

so today went to church. melissa didn't comee. forgot why..but only remembered she cant come... and deborah was like "what? how can you remember?".. LOL.

then edelweiss was playing today.. but the last piece wasn't really .... yeah..then charmaine went to help her. deborah was like "i'm so embarrassed for her!".. LOL LARHS. SO EVIL RIGHT?!.. deborah cant even play properly lorss!!. LOL..

lol.. then realised charmaine cant go for camp... so sad.... T_T

aiyas. then after that went for art... i realised i had lost my wonderful earpiece larhs.. SO SAD. and nat sms me and said "u lost ur earpiece? so sad. i lost mine.now its ur turn". GAHHHH

... andd... it was samantha's last lesson.. sad righttt??.. i intend to go out with jean, sam and nat on tues after science.. but like.. jean said she only MIGHT go.. whyy? because she said "if i'm not going out with anyone then i'll go".. WHATTTT DOES SHE MEAN BY THAT?!

and to think sam said "jean said that we're closer to her than her classmates".. GAHHH

loll.... i got really pissed during art todayy.. like.. i was also pissed with the 3 of them... partially because i was like. tired.. and because i was sad cuz i lost my earpiece... lol.

then... before class started.. i went to visit my new classroom... i realised that.. WE FINALLY HAVE PROPER TABLES AND CHAIRS!!!! YAYYY!!.. then sam... was like.. "u guys must go early n get nice seats..".. SO SAD RIGHT!

anywayy. IVE GOT BOWLING TMRRR.. YAY.i dunno. maybe i should go eat breakfast at kim seng. but like.. its SO EARLY. but otherwise i dont hafta eattt.. gahhhhhhhhhhhhh...

but see how... if i wanna wake up.. then i will!!

haha.. and deborah.. u wanna go out too??. hehs. but this time no calculator crap kayss...

and i really wanna go out with nat larhs. like.. she told me lets go out like. 3 years ago... OMGGGG.. ITS 3 YEARS ALREADYYY!!.. i dont care. i MUST go out with her during the holidays.. she suggested we go bowling. and i wanna bring jean and sam along.. and.. maybe i should bring fann.. hmmm...

dunno larhss. i just GOTTA GO OUT WITH NAT!. hmm.. nat. lets go jean's house too. xD

lol. ok i'll stop.

2007-05-27T16:46:00.001+08:00

hmmm. i know im real lazy.. thats why i'm not posting as often.. or as long.. heh..

so u know. i came online and checked my email as usual.. then i saw queenofsarcasm. i was like.. whattt?????

lol. yeahs.. anyway.. i realised something again!! i cant go for training on the 4th!! ARGHHH. n why? well. because .. wait. rephrase. some seniors, jo and i are having a friendly match against acjc. so yeahhhhh.. but i wanna go training T_T

I WAN TRAINING. I DONT WANNA MISS ANY MOREEEEE .. GAHHHHHHHHHHH

ok. nvm. i'll stop being so crazy...

wooooo

2007-05-25T23:29:00.000+08:00

i can officially announce that today i have walked a total of 28,957 steps so far!! WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!

anyway..... aiya. i'm soo super lazy to relate what happened !!! ... ok... easiest way. go to fann's blog and read.. and btw. when she left me alone. i was listening to someone go ON AND ON and it seemed like FOREVER... and that was after sch incase u didn't know.

well. so... today bugged nat A WHOLE LOT. hehs. like its so funny. but yeah..

geog finished.. then... its like last day of sch.. but then no. still gotta go back to sch..

hmmm.. well. yeah.. nothing much to say. or rather too lazy..

hmm. if i bother then i wil say tmr!

2007-05-24T21:31:00.000+08:00

乌云在我们心里搁下一块阴影
我聆听沉寂已久的心情
清晰透明
就像美丽的风景
总在回忆里才看的清
被伤透的心能不能够继续爱我
我用力牵起没温度的双手
过往温柔
已经被时间上锁
只剩挥散不去的难过

缓缓飘落的枫叶像思念
我点燃烛光温暖岁末的秋天
极光掠夺天边
北风掠过想你的容颜
我把爱想成了落叶
却换不回熟悉的那张脸

缓缓飘落的枫叶像思念
为何挽回要赶在冬天来之前
爱你穿越时间
两行来自秋末的眼泪
让爱渗透了地面
我要的只是你在我身边

被伤透的心能不能够继续爱我
我用力牵起没温度的双手
过往温柔
已经被时间上锁
只剩挥散不去的难过

在山腰间飘逸的红雨
随著北风凋零
我轻轻摇曳风铃
想唤醒被遗弃的爱情
雪花已铺满了地
深怕窗外枫叶已结成冰

-----------------------------------------

海平面远方开始掩埋
悲伤要怎么平静纯白
我的脸上始终夹带
淹没浅浅的无奈

你用唇语说你要离开 [情不在]
他难过无声的留下来
汹涌潮水
一定明白
不是浪而是泪海

转身离开
认真说不出来 [你有话说不出来]
海鸟跟鱼相爱
只是一场意外
我们的爱
争议一直存在
我们的爱一直存在 [回不来]
永久真爱竟累积成伤害
等待经历几次伤害

转身离开
认真说不出来 [你有话说不出来]
蔚蓝的珊瑚海
错过瞬间苍白
当初彼此 [不够成熟坦白]
你有我的 [不够成熟坦白]
不应该
热情不改笑容隐藏不来
爱深埋珊瑚海

毁坏的沙碉如何重来
有裂痕的爱怎么重盖
只是一切
结束太快
你说你无法释怀

贝壳里隐藏着什么期待
等花儿开
我们也已经无心再猜
脸上海风，咸咸的爱，沉不出还有未来

转身离开
认真说不出来 [你有话说不出来]
海鸟跟鱼相爱
只是一场意外
我们的爱
争议一直存在
我们的爱一直存在 [回不来]
永久真爱竟累积成伤害
等待经历几次伤害

转身离开
认真说不出来 [你有话说不出来]
蔚蓝的珊瑚海
错过瞬间苍白
当初彼此 [不够成熟坦白]
你有我的 [不够成熟坦白]
不应该
热情不改笑容隐藏不来
爱深埋珊瑚海

----------------------------

ok larhs. i know i dont like chinese and all.. but yeahh THE SONG IS NICE!

today

2007-05-24T19:21:00.000+08:00

me? i've been doing nothing. well. kinda.. ok. highlights of MY day..

got to see some entertaining pictures..
received another thick stack of notes n worksheets during elective module
managed to find a nice skin which i'm editing and i want to make that quick
thinking how to do my homework
realised that i cant go for 2 training sessions because of church camp
realised i've gotta play for children during church camp

i think thats about it larhs.. really boring day.. i dun wanna go to sch tmr!! u know everytime i enter the room.. i'll feel cold.. brrrggghhhh

heh. anywayy... oh. i dont think i've mentioned it. but joanna and i are representing the class for that interclass chess competition thing. yeah.. well. only volunteered because of CERTAIN circumstances.. yeah.

hmm...

o yeahhh. i managed to put in minutes to midnight into my phone just now.. and... uhhh... i dunno. i cant remember!!

i'm sure most of u know that i've got short term memory loss [STML]

... okkkk... memory isn't getting any better... ... ... ... ... ...

GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

hmmm.. noooo i cant think!!

u know what. i'll stop thinking before my mind cracks up -.-

pissed

2007-05-23T22:13:00.000+08:00

man. i'm so pissed. GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH dont bother asking why.

and my fellow bowling mates. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PATRONIZE THE BOWLING BLOG ...

and. my supposingly-nice classmates.. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE TYPE OUT UR NAME OR AT LEAST INITIALS SO WE CAN IDENTIFY WHO YOU ARE. OTHERWISE I WOULD HAVE TO BAN YOU FROM TAGGING THE CLASS BLOG...

argh. PISSED.

What i've done

2007-05-23T16:08:00.000+08:00

In this farewell
There's no blood
There's no alibi
Cause I've drawn regret
From the truth of a thousand lies
So let mercy come and wash away...

What I've done
I'll face myself
To cross out what I've become
Erase myself
And let go of what I've done

Put to rest
What you thought of me
While I clean this slate
With the hands of uncertainty
So let mercy come and wash away...

What I've done
I'll face myself
To cross out what I've become
Erase myself
And let go of what I've done

For what I've done
I start again
And whatever pain may come
Today this ends
I'm forgiving what I've done
I'll face myself
To cross out what I've become
Erase myself
And let go of what I've done

What I've done

Forgiving what I've done

tired!

2007-05-23T15:50:00.000+08:00

i'm super super super tired nowww...

just finished the first day of elective module.. spent 6 hours in the com lab looking at maps.. T_T.. MY EYES HURT!!

gahhhh. but it was kinda.. 'fun' and all. but really straining on the eyes... and it was super cold.. once jo and i came out we were like standing under the sun because we were so cold larhs!

anyway.. our recess was supposed to be at 12 - 1 but we all finished early so had extra ten minutes.. so started at 11.50 instead.. yeah..

for those of u who dont know yet.. access the bowling blog by clicking here ..

and sorry about the class blog but i seriously dont know much. just that most of the datelines are friday.. like geog photography proj.. current affairs journal.. history test retake.. and vocab book. and also.. uhs... cant remember. but yeah u get the point..

recess played badminton. then played that rugrat theme song with jo. damn funny..

yeah u get the point larhs but seriously. my eyes hurt SO BADLY!! ARGH.

and. i still haven't complained about yesteday during art lesson..

we didn't have art. and we were trying to find a lesson for science practical because our class is behind schedule. and for home econs too but yeah...

so hannah and shen-nen were trying to get the class attention then fann and i were shouting like crazy but no one bothered. and they just continued talking as tho no one was there.. ignoring us. ARGHHH. then i got so pissed i wanted to sleep. but then jean..rebecca koh.. yi an and cheryl kept talking so freaking loudly and talking crap summor. and i could hear felicia talking. goshhh!!

nvm. i'll stop. getting pissed already -.-

arghhhhh...

GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH..

and if i see u online.. be prepared for me to ask u how was ur elective module..

haiz...

oh yeah. i bought minutes to midnight by linkin park yesterday after guitar lesson. heh.

lol. kays. i'll stop!

2007-05-22T10:11:00.000+08:00

yayayyayaya.. i'm having music now.. in imac lab.. lol

i just tagged yuxian's tagboard .. NICELY I HOPE...

and arhs. just now just had pe.. then fann saw her... some major... yeah... then ALMOST. i said almost .. sabo-ed her.. and she's like.. pulling my head off right now. i wouldn't say. =X

man. she's blogging too. probably gonna say something REALLY NICE.. -.-"

hmm. christine is drawing some stuff next to me. and teenzhen is watching some "we live in singapore" thing on youtube.. lol...

hmmmmmmmmmmmm...

gah.. hmm. gonna be recess later. i wonder what i'm gonna do... xD

nah.. i'm just super .. BORED. LOL. BORED BORED BORED.

lol. just went to see what fann was doing. and ruijia tagged at her tagboard. saying how much memories she has. its archives in case you didn't know... lol

hehe. i'm feeling evil...

2007-05-21T20:29:00.000+08:00

today was super.. i dunno... sad maybe.

failed my history horribly. and my partner got so much way higher than i did.. i'm so pathetic right.

anyway. today lessons pretty slack.

bowling was boring really. was real tired and all. sent charlene n natasha home.. talked crap in the car..

thats all..

and i got my bowling training schedule. its every week in the holidays...

right now just really pissed and depressed.

Bring Me to Life

2007-05-21T20:20:00.000+08:00

how can you see into my eyes like open doors
leading you down into my core
where I’ve become so numb without a soul my spirit sleeping somewhere cold
until you find it there and lead it back home

(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can’t wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)
call my name and save me from the dark

(Wake me up)
bid my blood to run
(I can’t wake up)
before I come undone
(Save me)
save me from the nothing I’ve become

now that I know what I’m without
you can't just leave me
breathe into me and make me real
bring me to life

(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can’t wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)
call my name and save me from the dark

(Wake me up)
bid my blood to run
(I can’t wake up)
before I come undone
(Save me)
save me from the nothing I’ve become

frozen inside without your touch
~~without your love darling~~
only you are the life among the dead

all this time I can't believe I couldn't see
kept in the dark but you were there in front of me

I’ve been sleeping a thousand years it seems
got to open my eyes to everything

without a thought
without a voice
without a soul
don't let me die here
there must be something more

bring me to life

(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can’t wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)
call my name and save me from the dark

(Wake me up)
bid my blood to run
(I can’t wake up)
before I come undone
(Save me)
save me from the nothing I’ve become
(Bring me to life)
I’ve been living a lie, there’s nothing inside
(Bring me to life)

Vindicated

2007-05-21T20:10:00.000+08:00

Hope dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption
Winding in and winding out
The shine of it has caught my eye

And roped me in
So, mesmerizing, so hypnotizing,
I am captivated, I am

Vindicated
I am selfish
I am wrong
I am right
I ~~swear~~ I'm right
~~Swear~~ I knew it all along
And I am flawed, but I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now the things you swore you saw yourself

Like hope
dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption...

Iris

2007-05-21T20:04:00.000+08:00

And I'd give up forever to touch you
'Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now

And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
and sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
Yeah, you bleed just to know you're alive

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am

I just want you to know who I am

continue

2007-05-20T21:20:00.000+08:00

. cant remember where i left off. but anyway.. bowling had no one visiting!!!.. partly because of the location..

and. yeah. so we watch many ppl get dunked.. and.. walked around giving slips of paper.. asking ppl to visit.. so after a while we started to slack.. then played badminton with charlene, joanna and natasha. so yeah. was funny.. then played frisbee. that.. was fun. .. xD

then.. hmmm... i think thats about it... then the jellyhearts melted.. it was.. so.. disgusting...

had to clean it up..

then i went bowling with joanna.. walked almost 1.4km from a bus stop outside singapore island country club and walked up a slope all the way in?! IT WAS SO TIRING!

yeah. then by the time we reached we were dead. -.-

.. so i realised. out of the 12 hours i spent out of the house.. generally spent about.. uh.. 4+ hours with peiyi. spent.. 4+ hours with nat. and ... about... the rest of the time with jo.. which is about.. 2+ hours larhs!

aiya. so today went to church.. deborah melissa and i went for jws. while evelyn charmaine edelweiss mabel.. and the rest of them went young teens.. gahhh.. so after that went for art. and met jean samantha and natalie. wanted to pon larhs. but then jean too guai liao.. haiz. and lao shi was crapping about how sad he'll be.. LOL

hmm. then i went to watch dvd and lost track of time. lol..

so now i've gotta do the geog photography thing... and history performance task. and apparently everyone doesn't know how to do it.. hahahahha

ok nvm. i better stop and do my homework..

and oh. nataliee!! thanks for the songs. i wan summor next week!!

and fann i know ur gonna get ur cip hours. LOL =P

open house

2007-05-19T20:51:00.000+08:00

open house.. where should i start?.. hmmm....

well. last night i slept atlike. 1+.. tired larhs.

ok. so i woke up. and fann sent me a sms asking me to watch band perform.. so i was like.. ok...

then i went to school.. then i saw my seniors. they asked me to help them carry tables. then we walked somemore and saw teenzhen. so yeah. then i carried 6 chairs ok! pain -.-"

then anyway.. i helped to set up the stall. lol. then kept playing with the pins. lol... hmm. yeah. then i had probably almost 10 missed calls from nat. =X

so anyway... the banner was.. fury.. and hard.. and.. weird.. i dont know how to describe it.. lol. then it was first shift. i wasn't on duty. so i got peiyi to follow me to the khoo auditorium to watch band perform.. but then christine followed as well. so anyway.. it was christine's shift but she wanted to watch and be late..

according to what i hear.. band played something.. madrigalum and el bimbo.. haha. fann said they played phantom of the opera.. dunno arhs.. but anyway. el bimbo is super nice... and band plays nice too.. xD

so... after hearing. went down to help out a bit. then went to the canteen.. and wandered around... no wait. i played monkey with kritika, clara, magdelene and hwee ting.. yeah. and i was the monkey most of the time..

then went to the science lab.. and helped out. super funny. peiyi, jo and i were helping out at the lava lamp thing. haha. i did so many. and my hands were all oily.. blehs.. then went for shift with peiyi. then we went down. then i tried calling charlene and nat and .. yeah... then charlene came. then nat came.

by then i collected the jellyhearts and left them there.. so after that... uhhh. dunno.. i wanted to watch band perform again. but then peiyi was like "who was the one who said cannot slack?".. haiz..

then... i cant remember what i did... hmmm.. anyway. i bought yoghurt from natalie. my peer leader.. xD

and helped adeline and elisa sell cards. and visited ruijia in the hall and stole sweets.. heh.

hmmm... i remembered that yuching sms me -.-"

anyway... BOWLING IS SO FUN. BAND IS SO COOL. omg larhs.. i wanna join band. well. after much influence from my mum... but since band clashes with bowling. then no..

anyway........ enough with the crap.. bowling had barely anyone going larhs!...

im too tired to type this finish.. would continue later..

compound or mixture?

2007-05-18T22:12:00.000+08:00

if i said i was happy, angry, pissed and sad at the same time..

would u say that its a compound.. which creates a reaction when mixed?

or would u say that its a mixture? which just mixes together?

well. right now. i know people say its a mix of feelings but is it really true?

i just wonder...

maybe its happening.. thats maybe why i'm asking..

2007-05-18T20:29:00.000+08:00

you lied
to me and yourself
you thought everyone believed
you pretended to be someone you're not

you tried to fool people
you tried many ways
you pretended to be nice
but then 'saved' the day

you were just self deceiving
in deep remourse
because you know that
what you did was wrong

you were telling me
how good you are
and just how much
i should praise and be thankful for who you are

i really think you should think twice
because everyone knows that you're living a lie..

i know that you just want to be alone
i know you just want that fame
but then again i say
dont lie before its too late

words were meant to be said and spoke
not to be used
for despicable routes

you think that you're 'all that'
but you know that you're just nothing
and still boasting in the air

you know the truth
but why hide it away?
when you could just show it
and improve in some way

i'm starting to hate you
i really do
but it was by reluctance
that i still forgive you

maybe i should just tell you
that i dont want to be
a friend of someone
who is lying to me

now i'm saying it
indirectly

if you ever read this
understand one thing

i'll hate you..

unless you change

2007-05-18T20:07:00.000+08:00

You said goodbye,
I fell apart
I fell from all we had
To I never knew,
~~I needed you so bad~~
i thought i need you back...

You need to let things go,
I know you told me so
I've been through hell, to break the spell

Why did I ever let you slip away
Can't stand another day without you
Without the feeling, I once knew

I cry silently,
I cry inside of me
I cry hopelessly
~~Cause I know I'll never breathe your love again~~
cause i know i'll never forgive you ever again

I cry, cause you're not here with me
Cause I'm lonely as can be
~~Cause I know I'll never breathe your love again~~
cause i know u'll never need myself again

If you could see me now
You would know just how
How hard I try, not to wonder why
I wish I could believe in something new
just a wish

Oh, please somebody tell me it's not true
I'll never be over you
Why did I ever let you slip away
Can't stand another day without you
Without the feeling, I once knew

I cry silently,
I cry inside of me
I cry hopelessly
~~Cause I know I'll never breathe your love again~~
cause i know you'll never be there ever again

I cry, cause you're not here with me
Cause I'm lonely as can be
~~Cause I know I'll never breathe your love again~~
cause i know that nothing changes the world again

If I could have you back tomorrow
If I could lose the pain and sorrow
I would do just anything
To make you see, you still ~~love~~ me you just hate me

I cry silently,
I cry inside of me
I cry hopelessly
~~Cause I know I'll never breathe your love again~~
once again i say the same...

I cry, cause you're not here with me
Cause I'm lonely as can be
~~Cause I know I'll never breathe your love again~~
and another time because you don't understand...

~~Cause I know I'll never breathe your love again~~
and just another reminder...

I cry silently, I cry inside of me
I cry hopelessly
~~Cause I never no no never breathe your love again~~
and one more time..

I cry, cause you're not here with me
Cause I'm lonely as can be
~~Cause I know I'll never breathe your love~~
~~Know I'll never breathe your love again…..~~
this is just the last straw that i can stand and resist...

pissed

2007-05-18T19:53:00.000+08:00

man. i'm super super super pissed.. no not at anyone. just at. the banner. the banner that was supposed to be done yesterday. the one which left me all covered in paint. the one which is meant for bowling..

ok. nvm. i'll just. start about today. had chinese. and we finally finished all the chapters required for first semester... then had pe. played frisbee, basketball and tug of war. most fun was frisbee and tug of war.. frisbee saw fann running about catching it and elisa throwing it far.. and me throwing it until everyone kept running about.. HAHAHAH. tug of war. we uhs.... oh yeah. it was 4 on 4. and it was funny. LOL. but the rope hurt a lot -.-"

anyway. after that was break. dont remember doing anything then. then went science lab. tested out the 15 wtv wtv and blah blah blah. so anyway. after science was recess. then. uhh. lemme see. oh yeah. went to canteen only to do nothing. and then went for bowling meeting about our shifts. so yeah.. and peiyi was going "u know i'm the only sec2 in the second shift and all the ppl are the talkative ones?" LOL!!!

so after that had .. uh. i cant remember.. oh. i think it was.. geog? or math? cant rmb.. oh wait. MATH. yeah. ms chan allowed us to do the cards for open house... then after that was geog.. and

END OF SCHOOL.

then.. followed jo and fann to the lab because they're helping out the science thing.. yeah. then i left with the spray paint that jo's aunt brought and the banner and went down to find ppl to help me. so i tried calling teenzhen.. called charlene.. called justine.. then called nat. and u know. when i called her. she was like "oh i'm in the bus.. why?" .... "no. because im trying to find ppl to help me do the banner" .... "oh. too bad then... ".... beep.. beepp.. beeeeeppppp!!!.. UGHHHH.

anyway. ended up doing it with teenzhen and jo. then we couldn't do it in sch because they had malay. so i followed them to the.. the.. the.... the... bus and blah. we took 66. which means i could've gone home.. then i was like. doing the banner.. all alone.. and it was freaking hot. directly under the sun.. the tables and chairs were made of metal. so yeah... then i called charlene. and i sent her a picture of the banner.she was like "oh my god! its so ugly!".. WTHHHHH... HELLOOOO. -.-"

anyway. i did it for about one and a half hours.. before the security guard came and asked me to stop...

then i sat.. on the stupid burning chair...

then yeah. about it.. and today. fann was super sad cuz of her french horn. i wouldn't say anymore than that. but yeah.. and now i'm left to do the geog project. and sherine didn't give me her work!! UGH... and i've gotta do cards.. and... i've gotta bring my bowling ball and bag to sch.. and i'm responsible for making all the sec1's in second shift be punctual.. and i'm accountable to peiyi.. T_T

aw man.. i'm still feeling super pissed right now.

super

super

super

pissed...

UGHHHHHH!!!

super bored and tired..

2007-05-17T20:45:00.000+08:00

ok.. first. i managed to give charlene her turtle.. i got back my scissors.. OH WAIT. i stil dont have my cd..

anyway. ok. lets start from .. lets see.. nooo. i cant remember ANYTHING.. crap.

oh yeah. last night.. found out a sad/scary/freaky truth.. which was. that.. i was.. from the same. kindegarten.. a.... as...... ......... e. i dont dare say it. no hold on. i'm typing it. so fine.. same kindergarten as nat saw. AHHHHHH.ok.. i'll stop.

yeah. its freaky ok...

so. yeah. after that... after that SHOCKING PIECE OF NEWS...

i was in my room. lol. no. kidding. i'll talk about.. today..

assembly came early.. and gave charlene her turtle.. got my cd.. talked to seniors. realised another freaky thing. i was in the same class as nat just that she was in the morning session and i was in the afternoon..

then.. had art of speech. got scolded about the script book...

after that was uh... english. i think.. yeah. we did.. uhh. the summary of the comprehension. then after that was break. didn't really do anything. OH WAIT. I REMEMBER! cuz we were released early for break. so jo and i brought the cloth meant for the banner and went to the gallery.. waiting in ambush to 'capture' nat. AHAHAHAHA. super funny. then we chased her about. LOL

then had music.. haiz. had to re-do our powerpoint cuz someone deleted it for us. -.-

so. went down to canteen.. and blah blah blah. was pretty boring..

and uhs.. had.. science... then.. had lit and ce...

after sch stayed at the spiral staircase to do banner. then jo n nat were running around with the cloth.. claimed to be testing its 'durability' .. 'strength'.. 'flexibility' and all those physical properties.. lol.. dumb larhs then i ended u helping seniors do the noticeboard.. lol.

and in the car. nat was in denial. too lazy to tell the whole story..

then when we reached there. i got super thirsty. and. oh yeah. forgot to mention that i pack some stuff under my desk into my bowling bag.. so jo tortured me and took the stairs so 3 of us carried the bag down. and mind you my bag was heavy..

so training we made lesser noise.. yeah.. and. thats about it. and nat, teenzhen, jo and i were talking language. nat was talking french. well. she was studying for her french test tmr. jo and teenzhen were talking malay. n i was talking english/chinese/malay/japanese ? LOL..

then sang that frog song we learnt during the japan trip last year.. that one in jap.. a cannon?

yeah. then in the car it continued. and we played who what huh.. LOL. damn funny larhs... then. i dunno.

ok. i think thats all. i'm just so lazy to type everything out. ugh.. ok. bye..

long day

2007-05-16T19:12:00.000+08:00

man. today was a really really long day... well.. at least it felt like it was..

ok.. first.. uhs..

oh yeah. sorry charlene! i HAD to carry the newspapers!! =X promise i'll bring it tmr!

ok. after flag raising.. mrs quek announced that we've gotta clear our stuff under our desks..! i freaked because i've got LOADS of stuff underneath.. and its gonna be REAL heavy..

anyway. after that had math.. number patterns again. sherine performed for us. was super super super super super lame!

oh u know. i know its probably irrelavent to u but i just have gotta tell u.. u know. lately... well since the last time i ever mentioned. i've still been seeing nat coincidentally.. so yeah.

i'll continue.

after math was... uhh... I CANT REMEMBER.. oh wait. i remember now. gym.

it was horrible.

we had to do forward roll.. HORRIBLE I TELL YOU.

i was repeating and repeating just because i couldn't see where i was rolling because i took off my specs.. yes i have horrible eyesight. whats worse? i saw.. or at least knew and heard that.. my senior, magdelene.. SAW.. as in. saw me. and NOT nat saw to clear your thought jo...

so after that was break.. which we didn't really have. then it was history. by then i was seriously feeling tired already..

after that was recess.. planned the banner for bowling.. yeah. then realised that the pictures for our bowling ball has to be both sides... haiz. so anyway... realised that i .. 'killed' nat's pen and she 'killed' mine.. same type of pen. diff colour. mine's black her's blue. no dont think i mean blue black ok!..

so i was super broke today larhs. i spent the money from charity thing. so now i gotta pay back. =X

anywayyy!! ugh. after that was CE.. we did that study reflection and blah.. then had english.. did a compre...

but in between.. went to carry newspapers with fann.. and saw magdelene again.. writing something. dont know what larhs... and i wanted to borrow a pen... this is how it went :

me : hiya! you're so nice.. lend me your pen to write down my class on the newspapers..
magdelene : no
her friend : i'll lend u mine

so i started to walk away with fann..

her friend : hold on! it doesn't have ink.
me : WHAT?!
magdelene : ok la. i'll lend you mine.. but i only give you one minute..
her friend : wah. one minute? so long!
magdelene : nvm la.

so we went to write.. and i ended up drawing all over the newspapers.. =X.. then fann and i went back to class.. on the way....

fann : omg. i just realised that. ur senior was the person who was evil to me in primary school!
me : serious?
fann : YES. i recognise her!
me : wahhhh! she's evil right? *evil grin*
fann : yeah..

LOL. HAHAHAHA.

so after that... oh wait. school ended.

so i stayed back for the... sewing of the pencil case for home ec.. i un-did mine like.. 7 times in total! ughhhh!!

anyway. i managed to finish mine. so i bought a subway cookie from elisa again. haha... i was supposed to help fann carry somemore newspapers.. but i didn't sew it right. and was helping teen zhen also. but hers was still.. yeah.

then after that i helped ms lin clean up the place while amber and teen zhen were still doing..

then after that. fann came back up.. when i was about to wash the bleech off the bowl.. fann came back up.. and i realised that the bleech belonged to fann.. haiz.

so anyway. fann started chasing me around for my cookie.. hahaha

then i followed her up.. to 4th floor. cuz she has maths olympiad.. then she started telling me how 5 of her friends and her used to play catching, freeze and melt.. or something like that. then they ran away and always got scolding from the higher chinese teacher or SOMETHING LIKE THAT.. then she wanted me to follow her and attend maths olympiad with her..

so she was like... "adeline. hold jemima captive for me while i go ask the teacher.."

then she went in. and adeline followed. so i just went off. then i sms her. and after her maths olympiad ended at about 5+.she sms me and told me that the teacher allowed. and i had to explain. bleh.

so anyway. at about 4.15. received a call from nat.. she was hoping.. HOPING that i was still in school and would deliver her science workbook to her?.. how wonderful eh?..

then her computer was screwed. and she told me the process of making her computer work. its probably underage for most of you as its too violent to be mentioned here.

so.. yeah. then i went out. and missed MANY calls.. bleh... sorryy! my phone was on silent and didn't hear or feel it vibrate.. SORRY O_O

yeah. i dunno but today felt really really really long...

and seniors..

we mean it. we're sorry..

screwed once again

2007-05-15T19:15:00.000+08:00

well.. i'm screwed...

i know it isn't really the ideal way to start a post but yeah. i'm screwed.

i just want to clear something.

STOP ASKING ME TO TREAT YOU

ANYMORE.

U CAN BORROW BUT NOT TAKE.

MY POCKET MONEY HAS ALREADY

BEEN CUT..

I DONT WANT TO POINT OUT

ANYONE

BUT IM SURE U KNOW WHO YOU

ARE.

ughs. if you didn't understand that. tell me.. i'll explain every single word slowly.. and clearly.. an loudly.. until you understand.

ok. i'll stop.. and start.. talking about today.

so today brought my guitar to school.. initially wanted to stay back to do geog with fann then go for guitar. but the chinese opera thing was taking time...

so anyway. first lesson was chinese. i forgot to bring my chinese textbook!!!!! ughs..

then second lesson was... CE.. went to LT for it.. "find the extraodinary out of the ordinary"...

yeah. then after that was geog... got back the test papers.. charlene.. i got higher than u.. xD

anyway. after that. was health check up..jo and i went ahead of the class because of the bowling meeting. so after we went canteen.. and we saw shanice, peiyi and mars.. so shanice was like "you guys have only one minute left to eat".. i was like WHAT?!

yeah u get the point. now. the depressing part...

if u dont agree with what i'm saying then too bad. but i'm just saying because its just what i think.

ok. i know that us, the sec1 bowlers, are really really really noisy. i dont object to that. and i know that it isn't just yuxian and stephanie. i know that i also contributed. but generally.. yuxian and stephanie. u guys are the ones who start talking and make everyone talk... and i know that we have been horrible distractions to our own selves and our seniors.. even our coaches and teachers. i agree.. u know sometimes i see the teachers staring and looking because we're creating too much noise?

i know its hard to not talk and all.. but.. we will try to at least talk softly... ... i know that we say our seniors are strict. but i agree that other cca's have seniors who are way more strict...

i think.. that.. well. we should like... maybe find some OTHER time to bond. not during training and create a din all over the bowling alley... u know when we train. other ppl would stare at us. because of what?

yes. our noise.

im not trying to depress anyone or anything. but u know. i think we need to change.. its all for the better.

maybe not all of u know. but primary sch bowling was so much more slack.. and in sec sch is just so much more diff.

and. i dont want bowling to disappear. i dont want them to cancel it.. i want it to remain!

i dont care. all of u sec1s. including myself. we will all train harder and do the school proud for c divs!..

if bowling extinguishes.. i'm going to have to find a new cca. WHICH I DO NOT WANT TO!. and i might have to end up joining band. no. i dont want drills.

i dont want to be forced to get a new cca!.. but then again. if i didn't join bowling in the first place. i wouldn't have to know this. and go through this time. where i have to think. either i try better. or i get a new cca.. of course getting a new cca is easier.. but i want to try better..

i want EVERYONE TO KNOW. THAT BOWLING ISNT JUST THROWING A BALL DOWN A LANE AND HITTING PINS!

not all of u would know. but incase u didn't realise. whenever u join a cca. you'll feel attached to it. u wouldn't want to quit.

thats how i am right now.

maybe some of u may find this familiar.. but i find this statement true. BOWLING IS A PASSION.

i mean like.. bowling is.. it is exaggeration. but BOWLING IS MY LIFE!

HELLO!! fann. wouldnt u say u love band?!.. LIKE HELLO!!

U DONT NEED ME TO KNOCK IT INTO UR HEAD THAT I LOVE BOWLING!

YES. I DO.

I LOVE BOWLING

AND YOU CANT STOP ME.

even though.. i've been in sc bowling for about like. almost 5 months now. it just. seems so close to me. and i dont want our team to break up just like that. just because we're noisy. just because we dont concentrate. because we dont care...

so. i just. want to apologise to EVERYONE. especially seniors, teachers and coaches... about our bad behaviour. about how horrible we are.. i cant promise that EVERYONE OF US would change.but i know we'll try. and i know i will..

SORRY.

SORRY FOR

EVERYTHING WE'VE DONE.

and yes. if u want to hurl all ur insults. go ahead. i dont mind. like.. all of us did wrong and. i cant say no i'm not part of the team.

i'm sorry if you found that irrelavent because u dont care but i have the urge to say it.

so let me continue.. after recess.. was science. then had eng. then the opera thing.. sorry. no mood to describe.

so let me just. say this. one more time.

IM SORRY.

why did i even take the time. to bother..
no one cares anyway
doubt so at least.

i wish nothing of this had happened.
i wish i never knew..

why did we have to be so bad?
why did we not learn?
why didn't we even TRY?!

i wish...

but its just

a

wish...

reality

2007-05-14T20:43:00.000+08:00

i realised how much i've changed
even through out this short time
realised how much i neglect things
and wasted my time on rubbish
i know what i need to do
i need to change again
to become someone
who isn't so lost and wrong.

i know that i'm just
being too nice and doing unnecessary things
i know that i'm spending too much time
wasted on friends and things
i need to change and not spend
so much time wasted online doing nothing
i need to stop talking so much crap
because my grades are going to fall

i cant spend too much time on bowling
because it wont be my career
i know this maybe more crap
but i know its worth while
understanding what i should do

but i still know my priorities
but no i wont have any more best friends ever
not now. not in future.
why you may ask?
because of a bad experience
a bad experience that caused this to happen

too afraid to get hurt because
of best friends.
maybe good friends?
but still.
the phobia remains.

too many things happened before
but now i can change myself in this new school
but then the memories wouldn't fade
because the sad and happy times
would always be remembered by name

i wish i could forget everything
and start anew
but then
i have friends back there still

i cant say "i dont know you"
and say that i hate you

im confused
im lost between two sides
im losing grip
of this reality

maybe i just need time
but too long isn't good
maybe i just need to realise
that yes i can

i suddenly remembered
all the times from p3 to p4
when i had all the time in the world
to play around and have fun
i remembered the times
in p5 and p6
when i was couldn't study
and many of you pushed me

i remember being in japan
and enjoying the company of close friends
i remember getting into trouble
because of bubble gum
and my classmates..

i remember being mischievous all along
knowing that even though its wrong
i still do it because it was fun

i realised i had 'best' friends
and that they dont last.
maybe this school could be better

i realised that not everyone remains the same
in fact
most of us change

if i was still in p6
i would say
i wanna stay here forever

but now
i might say
i wanna stay in sec1 forever

i'll change
everyone does
but still
i need to have
a reality check

again

2007-05-14T20:23:00.000+08:00

today failed my 2.4 again. ugh.. i actually only ran 2.2.. then it was already 18.55.. whereas the previous time i did 2.4 in 18.55? haiz.

anyway. aside the failure.

so after that had the double period lit 'test'. it really wasn't much of a test. a lot of sharing and stuff.

so after lit was science. but mr sim wasn't in. and ms cheong came in by accident! haha.. so mr sim came in and we had science. pretty obvious eh.

so.. after science was recess.. initially wanted to carry out our health in motion plan.. but fann had drills. and so. we still cant do it. and jo and i saw that fann was slacking? but she did drills at the end of recess... .. also. during recess. shanice scared us. she said "tmr dont eat. come straight to amphi for something". then jo and i were creeped out. then jo was like 'maybe we'll do drills!'

anyway. after recess was... uhhhhh... maths! yeahs. learnt number patterns. anyway.. cuz ms chan asked for our socks.. then a lot of us raised up our hands to show that we didn't bring. then ms chan was like "hohoho" then genevieve was like. MERRY CHRISTMAS!.. FUNNY LOL.

then after maths was lit. we did the question thing.. yeahs. then after that was history. man. i got so pissed during history. my group was doing hinduism.. and when we were presenting.. no one was listening. now i know how frustrated teachers get when pupils dont listen. i got especially pissed with jean and rebecca koh. the two of them were like. TALK TALK TALK TALK . worse off. rebecca had her back faced to me.. SUPER PISSED OK. ugh.

after that had assembly. was writing the 101 ways to get rid of nessy from the lane.. HAHAHA. then jo and i were like.. being evil...

so after that had bowling. today.. only played ONE game.. my score. wasn't.. TOO BAD.... 109.. lol... then stayed back with charlene and nat for one more game.. and charlene was listening to her ipod and kept dancing on the spot like some crazy weirdo. and she kept dropping her ipod out of her pocket then when she picked it up. her bowling ball rolled away.. HAHAHAHAHA. then after that went home...

in the car... nat and i were talking about the report book and results.. then charlene suddenly popped up another topic - "today the game very lan. must be the lanes fault".. lol? completely out of the picture. then was talking about the counting system for o levels. yeahs. complicating. lol. then yeah. nat was super sleepy. lol. and she walks fast larhs. u know she left my house then walked out.. then i just like. went up the stairs. then i looked out the window. and saw that she was already like.. reaching the main road? SUPER FAST. nahs maybe i was just slow. LOL

so yeahs. thats about it. today was pretty boring.. so yeah... and fann was like. ' i need to bring my lao gong up to the LT...... i need to take care of him'.. LOL

u get the point. o btw. dun be mistaken. her lao gong is the french horn. lol..

kkz. thats.. about it i guess?.. yeah it should be. and i need to buy the cloth for the banner for bowling for open house! and i haven't finished the cards for open house... so dead..

ptd

2007-05-12T19:49:00.000+08:00

went for parent teacher dialogue today.. was pretty horrible..

if u wanna know my marks...

i'll tell you.

no i wont be so dumb as to tell you

i'm sure u've got ur own ways of finding out..

anyway.

ptd was just...

forget it. i'm not saying!

anywayyyyyy.... went to my cousin's wedding today. and guess what?

the song they played at the intro was...

PACHELBEL'S CANNON IN D.

..

i was laughing like crazy when i heard it. well .. but not aloud..

ok. anyway.

sorry charlene! i really couldn't get it today.. =X

andd.. yeahs. i cant rmb what else happened today..

but thats about it..

so boring right?.

i know it is..

2007-05-11T22:49:00.001+08:00

after listening to basket case so many times. i'm feeling hyper. i know its just odd and random. but i'm telling you..

YES I FEEL HYPER

2007-05-11T22:21:00.000+08:00

life's getting a lil better now. jean just apologised. and also on behalf of rebecca n yian. of cuz i woudn't know if the other 2 of them mean it.. but i trust jean isn't lying.

and just promised to get something for charlene.

and yuching is asking for bio tuition?

screwed

2007-05-11T21:48:00.000+08:00

i just realised how screwed i am.

i'm listening to ppl complain.. when i myself have something to complain about..

i'm listening to music which i dont even understand..

i'm doing things which i dont even know why...

that isnt all..

i'm FREAKING SCREWED.

THANKS TO ALL THOSE PPL WHO PARTICIPATED IN THE "LETS SCREW UP JEMIMA" COMPEITION.

OH BY THE WAY. THOSE PPL WHO PARTICIPATED. IM GLAD TO TELL YOU THAT YOU'VE WON.. YOU HAVE OFFICIALLY WON THE COMPETITION.

SO STOP IT

STOP SCREWING ME

IM SCREWED ENOUGH

YOU HEARD ME

STOP!

beingscrewedisenough.noneedyoutopushmefurther.i'mreachingthelimitasfarasiknow.

.. tmr got my cousin's wedding.

doubt i can go bowling at night cuz everyone's busy..

guess i'll just stay home and sleep

since i've got nothing better to do

since my life is so screwed

crap it

2007-05-11T21:27:00.000+08:00

suddenly i'm thinking about 2.4 again. well partly cuz i'm aching all over now..

stupid la.i mean like. i failed.. TWICE...

21.55 and 18.55. hmms. the second attempt was obviously better larhs. but if i ran this morning. its either the worst or the best..

worst - too tired
best - running all week n got used to it

well?

i wouldn't know..

blame the rain
blame it for raining

blehs. now i've gotta wait till monday..

and ..

i'd probably be slacking throughout the weekend ..

and...

i'll probably fail it the third time..

but nvm. i'll take it again until i pass.

i dont care

basket case

2007-05-11T21:05:00.000+08:00

Do you have the time
To listen to me whine
About nothing and everything
All at once

I am one of those
Melodramatic fools
Neurotic to the bone
No doubt about it

Sometimes I give myself the creeps
Sometimes my mind plays tricks on me
It all keeps adding up
I think I'm cracking up
Am I just paranoid?
I'm just stoned

Grasping to control
So you better hold on

why?

2007-05-11T15:55:00.000+08:00

i just realised.. that i've gotta play piano for junior worship service on the 20th this month!!!!

and i haven't practised..

i haven't even looked at what the songs are!!

.....

i dun wanna screw up. but yeahs i'm too lazy to practise.. ok. nvm i'm crapping.

go watch these 2 videos on youtube.. super funny

some song

Pachelbel's rant

yeah. go watch!

and also go watch stewie.. LOL. =P

anyway. today. chinese did compo. and i finally did a compo thats more than 2 pages.. LOL. i know i'm pathetic. no need for ya to tell me.

then after chinese was... uhs.. ARGH I CANT REMEMBER?. o wait. that because chinese was double period. ok. so that means.. it was break then science. yeahs. oh yeah . during break.. joanna and charlene were slapping each other... then they were like complaining and blah. then i ended up getting slapped alternately by them ? ... dumb i know. lol

anyway then had science. yeah.. didn't screw up this time... and joanna and felicia put 7 test tubes n put in diff amounts of water and started blowing.. which made 'music' .. then fann was like. LETS DO IT. then i was like okk.. then we onli did 6 test tubes. then i made it sound like that song learnt in music.. uhs.. something like morning shining bright.. then dunno dunno what...OH YEAH.RIVER OF DREAMS!. ok anything.

then fann wanted to change to pe in class. then she was changing n jo and i were waiting. then the prefect came to lock the classroom.. then when she saw fann changing she immediately turned away.. LOL LA. then after that jo was like. you can lock the back door first!.. i thought i already locked it?.. OH I DIDNT!..

ok that part is redundant but nevertheless.. then when fann came out after she change. the prefect was like. why did u change?.. then fann was like. because i've got band later after school. then the prefect said. i dont think ur allowed to change now... then fann was like WHAT?!

and guess what? FANN HAD TO CHANGE BACK. LOL.

superrrr funny. ok.. i wouldn't know if u got it but u should.

then.... after recess was home econs. yeah. i screwed up the sewing of the pencil case.. i did it THREE TIMES. and un-did it THREE TIMES. and it still isnt nice. so i'm gonna do it next weds.. blehs. anyway. then after that went back to class... i was so super blur. i didn't realise that sch ended at 12.50... i thought it was 1.40!! ARGH. I THOUGHT THERE WAS ONE MORE LESSON. until i asked rui jia that is. -.-"

then i was like.. huhhhh! then i didn't wanna go home yet. so i followed teen zhen. helped her tie newspapers and put them at gallery.. hand up the art work.. then went to general office to give the water bottle that was found yesterday after bowling.. then after that.. went to canteen.. then went to com lab. and it was in the com lab that i started to irrtate amanda. LOL. amanda felicia and natassia were there waiting for debate later. so i went to amanda's blog and started flooding it. then she kept deleting my tags!!

anyway. then i was playing el bimbo out loud .. then teen zhen had to go. and when she left.. her sister chased after her.. and u know. we were finding for her sister in the canteen? -.-"

lucky she followed me to the com lab

so i stayed back till about 2.20+ then went home...

so thats about it.

OH YEAH. u know i was so stressed about that crappy 2.4.. then i was like. ok nvm i'll run. then this morning it rained. so i didn't have to run? well. its dumb i know.. so i'm gonna run on monday morning. blehs..

and here i was being stressed.. and there was rebecca koh yian and jean crapping that i like hwa chong guys? HELLO. WTH IS WRONG WITH ALL OF YOU.

. gosh. the moment i mention it i get so pissed. ignored jean the entire day.

wtv.

We’re not gonna be just a part of their game
We’re not gonna be just the victims
They’re taking our dreams and they tear them apart
‘Til everyone’s the same

I’ve got no place to go
I’ve got nowhere to run
They’d love to watch me fall
They think they know it all

I’m a nightmare, a disaster
That’s what they always said
I’m a lost cause, not a hero
But I’ll make it on my own
I’ve gotta prove them wrong
Me against the world
It’s me against the world

We won’t let them change how we feel in our hearts
We’re not gonna let them control us
We won’t let them shove all their thoughts in our heads
And we’ll never be like them

I’ve got no place to go
I’ve got nowhere to run
They’d love to watch me fall
They think they know it all

I’m a nightmare, a disaster
That’s what they always said
I’m a lost cause, not a hero
But I’ll make it on my own
I’ve gotta prove them wrong
It's me against the world
Me against the world

Now I’m sick of this waiting
So come on and take your shot
You can spit all your insults
But nothing you say’s gonna change us
You can sit there and judge me
Say what you want to
We’ll never let you win

I’m a nightmare, a disaster
That’s what they always said
I’m a lost cause, not a hero
But I’ll make it on my own
Me against the world

I’m a nightmare, a disaster
That’s what they always said
I’m a lost cause, not a hero
But I’ll make it on my own
I’ve gotta prove them wrong
They’ll never bring us down
We’ll never fall in line
I’ll make it on my own

Me against the world

2007-05-11T14:17:00.000+08:00

i'm in the com lab. and some crazy person who is supposed to be called amanda is standing.. uhs. behind me. she's just insane. anyway. i'm just bored. so decided to blog about nothing. so u get the point..

BLAH.

there. thats crap. i'm too lazy to blog about everything that happened today. so i'll probably do it when i get home.. at night.. some time.. long later.. lol..

BYE!

2007-05-10T20:41:00.000+08:00

u know what. i just realised how super super super super super super long that was..

MUST REMEMBER TO BREAK IT UP NEXT TIME

dedicating it?

2007-05-10T20:01:00.000+08:00

had art of speech todayy. super slack! rui jia fann and i were at the back talking about band. i was like. kinda left out cuz rui jia was a band major in primary sch! COOL HUH? heh. ok i'll stop.

so. after that had history. once again. everyone was dead and tired. OH YES.BEFORE I FORGET. THIS MORNING RAN 2.4 AGAIN!. i improved by exactly 3 minutes... but i still failed -.-

anyway. after history.. was.. uhhh. science. yeah. did the experiment and realised how horrible we were. and i screwed up at the science lab man.

first. when i went to get the ethanol from mr sim at the teacher's desk.. i tripped over that pipe thing and i smashed the test tube at the bottom head onto the sink? omg larh. scared me. i thought my hand was gonna die..then after that i went to get the salt.. and i spilled it. then i turned the tap on from the back of the sink. then the water splashed all over the place.. then after that.. i went to get the detergent to wash the oil off.. then i spilled the detergent all over the sink... then after that i splashed water all over the place again...

see how screwed i was?

well. enough of that. so after science was recess.. ran another 200m with fann. so it means i ran a total of 5km in 3 days.. haha..

so after recess.. was..math.. got more homework. then had geog. ms ku wasn't here. so it was super fun. cuz there was this whole group of ppl playing dare or dare. hahahaha. SUPER FUNNY MANNN!!!!

then after that was eng. had a lot of homework.. mhmm..

then after eng was bowling. HAHHA. today bowled relatively well larhs. wont say its too bad or too good. first game got 135.. then gt 95.. then got 142.. hehe.. i have an average of.. 124! ..not too bad..

anyway.. i'm super tired. but yeahs. OH YES. crap. damn it. i suddenly remembered that during art of speech. i told rui jia and fann that i woud dedicate the 55th post to everyone.. one by one. but. this post is the 51 one.. it'll be REALLY LONG.. hmmm.. ok. nvm. i'll just. make this post real long by doing it now..

it isn't in any order so dont think i'm biased ok!

raffles :

all ex 6H classmates - thanks for making my life in p6 BEARABLE. u guys know what u did -.-
amanda lim - thanks for being sucha niceeeee friend for.... 4 years. xD
clarissa - hahaaa. thanks for beingg my best friend for 4 years! except the violin part =X
sarah - thanks for being nice. even tho u were.. mean sometimes.
rachel y. - thanks for being evil..
tracey - dont ask why! but u pushed me to actually hand up my homework. amazing i know.
siok ling - thx 4 being sucha.. evil but good mama.. haha.
yu ching - thanks for being my competition since p3.. LOL..had loads of fun competing with u.. xD
shanice - thx for making me study for the ONE test. LOL. no kidding. thx for helping me do my homework n being sucha nice friend.
nicole - thanks for being sucha nice ah ma! super niceeee =P
bowling mates - u guys. are super. funny!.. HAHAHA. esp alcine.. gabbie anddd sarah!. hmm sorry if i forgot u =X

sc :

classmates - say i dont know ALL of u well. but its nice to know that you guys.. can be nice. and evil too -.-"
fann - i dunno.. guess i've been sitting beside u since sch started.. but thx for being nice and crazy..
rui jia - thx for helping me torture fann.. and making me run my 2.4 today =X
carolyn - STOP SAYING 'shut up jemima' .. u just know that u dont wanna say it. anyway. thx for not handing up work with me. LOL
jean - thx for talking to me almost EVERYNIGHT.. and thx for always being so .. free.. haha. u spent a lot of time talking to me xD
qiying - thx for beinggg super nicee! otherwise i would suffer under the hands of carolyn and fann .. HAHA
elisa - even tho ur evil. but u still pushed me on 2.4 both times..

ok u know what. i'm tired of thinking -.-"

bowling :
charlene - super wacko!. nice larhs. just that u help me spend too much money... and also super hyper.. haha
natasha - another crazy one. aiya. but still. TOO NICE. and too scary. but another person who actually suggests to help me spend money.. *ahem*
joanna - hha. always happy to compete against one.. ONE FRAME AND 10 POINTS!
christine - hmm. not sure. u just keep telling me i hate you. -.-"
deborah - thx A LOT for the powder... no kidding.. haha.. maybe i'm not . O_O
yuxian - u crazy and disgusting freaky person .. thx for being another wonderful left hander. HAHAHA.. hyper. not hyper. but u seriously have too loud a voice.
stephanie - the worst.. most disgusting. always saying that ur ass is hot?.. yeahs. but ur always crazzyy. and u dunno how to be angry! hehe.
vanessa - dunnno!. but i know u make a good left hander. xD
teen zhen - well.. thx for helping me in my chi homework in p5 n 6. i know its weird to say it here but yeah.. thx for following me to bowling auditions in the first place! xD
justine - .. thx for.. uhs. letting me bug u .. sometimes . sorta. I DUNNO!

ok. u see.. my mind is pretty blank cuz my legs ACHE!.. but yeah u get my whole point of thanking..

okok. i'll stop. this post is already as long as it is..

BYE!. no. wait. i think i forgot something... ugh.. YES.

natalie - thx for skipping class with me all the time.. and also for helping me sabo jean... n thx for being so super nice for the past.......... i think.. 2 years.. or 3?

ok. i think thats all. HOLD ON..

samantha - thx for talking to me everytime we're early for class. haha.
ning zhen - thx for providing masking tape =X

mhmm. is that all? o_O.. NO CHURCH!!!!!

charmaine - thx for always turning up..
edelweiss - person who always wants my phone.. aiya...
deborah -thx for.. being nice for the past... 7 years!.. hahaha.
melissa - thx for being nice for the past 7 years too. but. nowadays i dont see u..

i think thats about it.. too many ppl to mention! sorry if i missed u out.. WAIT WAIT WAIT. IMPORTANT. SENIORS!

shanice - nice. but then again.. sometimes look so fierce.. but still nice xD
marissa - nice n kind!! thx for seeing me at 2.4 today =X
peiyi - nice also! man. my seniors are all nice. haha. anyway. thx for letting me have a chance to be a statue!
kritika - maybe i spelt ur name wrong. dunno? anyway! thx for being my ego senior who lets me compete against. HAHA
clara - haha. love waving to ya! =P
hwee ting - hogger!. no larhs. kidding. thx for ............... supporting all the time
magdalene - also another person nice to wave at.. hmmmm..

ok. too many seniors . but u guys wont be mad i know !

ok.. i'll.. stop.. i think.. BEAR WITH IT OK!

hmm. ok. i'll stop. BYE!

2007-05-09T19:40:00.000+08:00

noooooooooooooooo!!!!! IM GOING CRAZY SOON.

i've been listening to el bimbo for the past 1 and a half hours!! ARGH.. stupid fann. got me going crazy. -.-

ARGH. and she can tell me "oh its ok" ..?! HELLO?!..

anyway. i'll find a way to convert myself to normal. -.-

bored!

2007-05-09T14:47:00.000+08:00

i'm in the com lab.. lol. and fann is with me.. and...crapping about her el bimbo. LOL..

anyway....

u know. i just asked fann what happened yesterday and guess what she said? "oh. yesterday? you met this wonderful girl called fann".. LOL LOL LOL

and i keep playing el bimbo to irritate her.. HA. anyway. she's like. blogging it against me. LOL. anyway anyway anyway.....!

ok. yesterday. um. contact time.. got scolding frm mrs quek. she said if we don't hand up our work then we'll have to run 3 rounds around the amphi?.. uhss.. yeah.. and if we still dont. minus one happy note each time.. T_T

so. anyway. after contact time was chinese. was super slack. lao shi nice larhs...

after chinese was.. pe.. ran 2.4 larhs.. mrs bowness let our class use ipod when we run. heh. but our class did worse than normal. and i failed.. like. seriously failed horribly.. 21.55???!!!!

ok. nvm about that. i know i cant run larhs. anyway... after that was. music. yeah. some ppl did presentations.. and.. didn't finish mine yet. then i had to do it larhs. then still haven't finish. so stayed longer for .. well. my entire recess to finish the.. the.. garage band. yeah.

so after music and recess was art. super slack. lol. sherine jean fann and i were crapping.. lols. anyway. after that was history. by that time.. all of us were super tired.. esp since we did 2.4... then ms cheong asked us to stand up and massage our partners? super funny..

then end of sch lors. i .. cant rmb what i did. OH WAIT. i went to the com lab?. WAIT. i think i told this before.. lol. cant rmb. anyway.. went home super late. and rushed for guitar lesson. during the entire time since i was in the com lab until end of guitar lesson. had been smsing nat. weird huh? lol. anywayyyyy.. i bought raffia strings yesterday and i didn't bring it today.. dumb -.-"

just now. senior walked in. ehhhes. and she said hi junior. and i was trying to make fann jealous that my seniors were nicer than hers larhs! lol. at least. towards her. =P

ok. anyway. today.. hmmm.. during chinese today was even MORE slack. then had ce. was super dumb larhs.. oh we did that .. family collage thing. yeah. then.. science had the practical. super easy i'd say. then was playing with the pendulum. HA.

Esther is the prettiest, cleverest princess. I mean, that is like, so totally true, except that someone, like, mislead Fann so she doesn't agree. But still, how could anyone think that I'm not a princess? Fann is SO deluded.
esther suvks

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ok u know what. ignore that. some *ahem* crazy ppl just helped me screw up my thought. cuz fann asked me to watch STEWIE!.

ok. anyway.. lit today larhs.. had to run 6 rounds round amphi. yes. homework prob. anyway. after that had english. both by mrs quek so continued with the lesson. then after that was math. super slack.

so before i came in here.. was talking to elisa adeline and fann. we were talking. then after that talked to elisa adeline and.. qiying. fann ran off to ... no idea... then she was like " i wanna listen to el bimbo!" then i suggested going to the com lab. then she was like. YES. ok so u get the point. i'm sure u guys aren't dumb. ehhhes. WATCHING STEWIE.. oh yeahs. go to youtube and search for pachebel's rant. man. that thing is super funny. about this guy and pachelbel's cannon in d. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.. its the first one on the list. HAHAHA..

hmm. ok. i shall continue watching stewie. =P

o btw. we were watching the one going. "lois, lois, lois, lois.... mom, mom, mom, mom... mummy, mummy, mummy, mummy.. yeah. super funny. GO SEE. "

and now fann's asking me to watch ding fries are done.. bet its funny =p. hold on. i just watched it. IT IS FUNNY. HAHAHAHAHA. DING FRIES ARE DONE DING FRIES ARE DONE. DING FRIES ARE DONE. man super funny. just watch it for urself...

ew. now watching puke contest? EWWWW. lol. =P. ok larhs. i'll. stop before i keep .. typing .. and typing.. and typing.. -.-'

BYE!

training

2007-05-07T21:06:00.000+08:00

u know what. i took super long just to enter and blog. demanded by charlene. *ahem*

ok. lets start..

yesterday.. didn't go church. went for art. guess what? nat and i pon it. jean didn't dare.. then sam came late. then before that kept running away from sam's mum. lol. scary. during that time. nat and i were studying geog. then we drank coffee.. 4 cans! OMG LARHS. i got so super hyper after that. hehe.

okok. i better stop before charlene kills me..

well. today.. in sch.. during flag raising. charlene gave the bowling chains. heh. ok. nvm. lol. no. wait. nvm. -_-

then.. uhs. yeah. no. .... sry. kinda mentally block... uhhs.. ah yeah.. had lit. mrs quek was talking about poems.. n literary devices... and u know.. for once. carolyn fann n i were quite? the person talking was.. QIYING! AMAZING EHS?

then.. had..science... got to play around with the stuff..

and in the next science lab was co. then charlene was sitting at that seat where the door to the centre of the whatever could be seen.. then i saw. then started being crazy.. lol ok..

then after science was recess.. wanted to go imac. but ended up going to gym. lol. weird eh. then.. had geog. realised that the nxt 2 weeks are gonna be super stress.. cuz its gonna be last few weeks of sch? and CRAP. THERE'S THAT ELECTIVE MODULE THING!

anyway. after geog had lit again. then had math. then had assembly. SUPER FUNNY OK. it was storytelling. and i realised that last minute stories done by sec2's are lame but funny and entertaining. ehhhe.. like there was one about the pink pingpong ball.. lol...

after that. went for bowling... we were having roll-off.. scary.. hmms. so there were 20 ppl and 4 pairs of lanes.. so 5 ppl to a pair. lol

then first game got 119. was among the top 5 so had to change group. then after that had to change group again cuz my score dropped to 107. bleh. moved 2 groups lower T_T

then couldn't finish the last game. so my avg fo the 2 games were... 113. HA!. YUCHING BE JEALOUS.

then.. i dunno! i cant rmb! all i rmb.. was.. uhhh. rushing to great world to buy stuff.. treated jo and christine today... got some note from nat which btw.. isn't a good thing cuz it was.. evil. LOL. then.... all i remember after that was.. laughing.. stomach ache.. mouth aching.. hmm.. and laughing.. and laughing.. and MORE LAUGHING. OK. NOW I FEEL LIKE LAUGHING ALRDY. HARHS!

anyway.. oh yeah. sry charlene.. u know larhs i didn't intentionally let u drop on ur back. anyway. u also pulled me round and round. and while u fell.. i was spinning -.-"

so.. hmms. oh yeah here's something which i collated using some words from the poems given by mrs quek from langston hughes .. words frm mrs quek. and one phrase from geog lesson..

I saw this : mental constipation; discretion of reality.
Heart melodies, cloud-cloth, too-rough...
All from some load, sagging heavily down,
from some dream deferred, some time keeper,
some dream unfulfilled, a fragile lie...
a dream... ...

ok. i'll just stop. u know something? carolyn just called me and asked me to go online.. when i'm online alrdy? LOL
HAHAHAHAHAH
HAHHAHAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

BYES!

lazy

2007-05-05T22:31:00.000+08:00

sry but i've just been to lazy to blog -.-"

lol. i know i'm super lazy larhs. no need u to tell me that.. ok. umms. yesterday added some columns for class blog. go check it if u haven't..

oh yes. yesterday... my class didn't have to do 2.4!! cuz it was raining and the track was wet. HAHAHA. lol. so we'll do ours next tues.. lol

hmmm.. then.. uhs. yes.. during recess. qiying lost that napfa thing in the hall.so jo and i went with her and hannah to check if mrs bowness had it. and she did.luckily that is.

after sch.. went to j8 with fishy, stephanie and charlene. [i was about to put fishy, yuxian, stephanie and charlene.. =X]

we took neoprints.. and most of them had fishy's butt sticking out. LOL. HAHAHAHA

then after that.. charlene and i went to get bowling chains for nat, jo and ourselves... nope. you wouldn't know it. i'll just make sure u see it and get jealous. HAHA. but it seriously costs a bomb ...

and after that went home. then arhs. ehs. watched dvd until like.. 1am. =x

i woke up really late today.. like.. 10 .. lol. and then had tuition. then went out and ate dinner out.. so pretty boring day. surprisingly. i can fit 2 days into sucha short post ehs? HAHHA. lol.

oh wait. i forgot to mention. HOW DISGUSTING YUXIAN AND STEPHANIE ARE. EW LARHS. SUPER SICK OKAY!

bleh. i wouldn't spell it out for u.. just talk to them and u'll get the idea. *shivers*

well.. tmr's sunday. and i can't wait xD

hmmmm. ok larhs. nothing else to add... but u know. i was thinking of changing my skin. im not crazy. as in crazy crazy.. over mcr.. nope. not now.. yes i know i'm just weird and crazy. but yeah its true... maybe i should make my own.. and stuff in pictures of all my album covers. LOL. [getting ego!]

ahhhhss. okkk.. i'm going crazy. LOL.. hmm. so MAYBE. only MAYBE i'll change it. as i've said at the beginning.. IM LAZY... :D

ok larhhs. OH WAIT.. anyone wants more songs from my phone?.. i just added another.. about another 60 songs... which gives me 294 songs in my phone! HA!

okok. i WILL STOP NOW. [control.. controllll........]

... BYE..

with that reluctance leaving its print behind.. -

i found an unreasonable cut
where it affects me the most..

i saw the joy
when you heard me fail...

i thought of this
when i knew you died...

funny and crazy

2007-05-03T19:33:00.000+08:00

todayyy was just extremely funny.. and it was mostly carolyn's and fann's fault. LOL

ok. they kept singing "under the sea" from the little mermaid and kept singing this:

L is for the way you look at me

O is for the only one i see

V is very very extraordinary

E is even more than anything that you adore and love

and whenever they got to the E part. then they'll get sooo soft.. its cuz they were unsure. until genevieve told them. haha..

then they continued that "i ________ you" thing. LOL.. HAHAHAHA

and then we were talking about how carolyn's hair is straight with a waveee at the side. and carolyn kept going "oh shut up jemima".. LOL LOL LOL

hmmmm. and during eng today .everyone was "sabo-ing" everyone to answer questions. hahah.

and during science .. as in. after school.. jo and i waited outside the staff room trying to get mr sim for 20 minutes?! .. so dumb larhs. then he was late. we were gonna have a replacement lab lesson because my class is behind practical but ahead for theory. so yeah.

so during the science lesson. nothing much. fann wet me. was an accident la. and.. kept asking mr sim for more filter paper cuz it was all wet. haha. then jo and i wanted to leave early. so we just asked mr sim to faster demonstrate the liquid distillation to us first. then we tasted alcohol...

i took about 5 times .. i couldn't taste anything. then suddenly i tasted all the 5 drops at one go! IT WAS SO .. EWWWWWWWWWWWW.. i think u get the point

so after that rushed to bowling. jo's mum fetched us. today was jo's younger bro's bday. so cute larhs. lol.. and we got our skirts today.. dont wanna mention any further about that.. jo's mum treated me to fried rice. haha.

hmmm. then bowling today was stupid. i realised how extreme stephanie and yuxian could get.they were SO EXTREME DISGUSTING. u know they were like. "its so hot in here" and start lifting the skirt? .. oh yeah. i forgot to mention that there r shorts inside larhs. lol. and then stephanie was like "yeah. and i'm SO itchy!".. EWWW EWW EWWWWWWWWWWWWW

okok. enough with the sick part. then my team was so.. no offence. but pathetic.. we were the ONLY team which had to do stationary... T_T

and vanessa, yuxian and i.. concluded that left handers are better than the right handers on our team. HAHAHAHAHA... =X

hmmm.. so.... ehs. cant rmb what else to say..!. OH YES. after bowling. my dad was sending charlene to her grandma's house then send me home. then on the way, we saw deborah n nat in the car on our right. and saw shanice's car behind us. HAHAHA. then we all started waving like mad. even shanice's dad waved! HAHAHAHAHHA.. then i knocked my head onto charlene's head quite a few times... LOL

hmmm... and fann.. remember the filter paper in ur science book.

and... uhh.. oh yes. got back my good charlotte cd. and lent nat the fall out boy infinity on high. lol. yes i know i'm crazy..

oh yeah. nat taught me some.. what do u call it arhs.. "form of encouragement".. LOL okok. i know i'm just being lame..

hmmmmmmm... ok larhs. i'm so blur now. OH YES. justine, vanessa, yuxian and stephanie formed a team for national age group. now there's 2 sec 2 and 2 sec 1 groups participating! man. just thinking about the competition within the ppl participating from sch is just bad enough. imagine others....

mm.. i think thats about my day. hmms. yeah. i think it is..

when the dawn of day approaches
the day fades away.
the moon rises up
and chases the light away.

hope is meant to remain
for the next day.
but if you lost your faith
then try another day.

once the day is done
you have to just say
that YES i have done well
and NO i didn't fail

one of the factors
that affect my life
have to be my friends
and of course, my plight

to change this problem
all i have to do
is to acknowledge
that i KNOW you

happy

2007-05-02T20:03:00.000+08:00

need i say it? cant u see the title? i know you know what i wanna say.

YES. SO SMART

IM SO HAPPY.

why you may ask?

well. its because...

AHEM.

nat's able to join the national age group now. (:

n im so crazy now.. haha... just something to say :

Hold fast o dreams
For if dreams die
Life is a broken-winged bird
That cannot fly

Hold fast to dreams
For when dreams go
Life is a barren field
Frozen with snow
-Langston Hughes

Your dream is
your direction,
Your motivation
your inspiration.

Decide on a
dream today,
Nothing will inspire you
in quite the same way.

A dream is the only
true adventure ,
When you have a dream
you swim the rivers of pleasure.

Choose a dream
do it now,
When you have a dream
you have go power.

Great things
happen,
To people who
make them happen.

When you have a dream
your on a roll,
Because your working
towards a goal.

When you have a dream
you are Rich,
Without a dream
people perish.

Onto your dream
forever hold,
And you'll walk on
a carpet of gold.

Nothing comes from
doing nothing,
We are never more happy
Than when we are doing something.

What you can dream
you can do,
There is always
more in you.

He who dares wins
he who dares nothing,
Need not hope
for anything.

Ideas are worthless
without action,
Don't procrastinate
be a man of action.

Whatever you want to do
begin it now,
Action has a
magic power .

What's the motto of
a millionaire,
He who has begun
is halfway there.

There's something special
here for you ,
At Gotsit dreams
Really do come true.

Positivity is the
mysterious potion,
Positive puts you
in control position.

Say something positive
about your goal,
Do something positive
about your goal.

Be brave be bold
be positive,
The rewards will be
enormous.

Become a positive
Reactor,
Make positive thoughts
your anchor.

Have a positive mind set
follow through,
And good luck
will follow you.

Focus on the
present,
Make something
of the moment.

Place your goal
inside your mind,
Water it and
you will find.

Once you tell your mind
what to do,
Your mind will start making
your dreams come true.

Because your mind
will do,
Whatever you
program it to do.

Think about your goal
and you'll move towards it,
The more you think about it
the sooner you achieve it.

Be passionate about
your goal and you'll find,
Magic ideas will
enter your mind.

When you need
an inspiration,
The trick is
self suggestion.

Plant a positive
in your mind,
All that I am is
because of my mind.

Self belief is
your steam,
Behind your
dream.

Self belief is the greatest
blessing you can have,
Believe you can do it
And you'll land on a lilly pad.

Towards your goal
continue to sail,
And your life will be
a fairy tale.

Your life will be full
of Satisfaction,
Because your in
Control position

When your positive
in whatever your doing,
Every cloud has
a silver lining.

When your Attitude is positive
you make your own magic,
Because your always
optimistic

Each day gives you another chance
to launch the dream inside of you,
Good luck God Bless
I'll be thinking of you
-gotsit.com

broke!

2007-05-02T16:22:00.000+08:00

yesterday went bowling with joanna at singapore island country club...

we bowled for about an hour and a half. then we went to play pool. hahahhaha. lol. then we went to the arcade.. in total spent probably about $30+ playing one game only.. lol. crazy right?

bowling. we played 3 games. average about 110+ for me. highest game 130. lol. joanna highest was uhs. i think 110+. not sure. cant rmb...

yeahs. it was weird yesterday. but so fun. but got broke... and last night. nat saw called and said her mum doesn't allow her to go for national age group.. ARGH. i dun care larhs. i'm gonna make sure that she goes. HMPH.

then today. this morning came kinda late to sch. stupid traffic jam. lol.

anyway. jo, nat and i walked to the toilet. we were finding charlene cuz she wasn't in class. and charlene was in the toilet saying she's got a stomach ache. then suddenly nat was like. needed to puke.. and nat's eyes were black like a panda. and charlene's eyes were all red like she just cried. mannn. and jo's face was just normal. and me. my cheeks were red [as usual] and my eyes were kinda black. u see the coincidential-ness? HAHAHAHA..

then i realised during recess that nat's eyes were swollen... haiz...

and today. fann finally handed up her health booklet. and we realised i had the smallest head at birth in the group.. lol..

today during lit was about Vincent Van Gogh.. and we listened to that song "starry starry night" by Josh Groban.. lol.. and we had that air refreshening thing in class. one infront one at the back. and most of us didn't like the smell. lol.

tmr gonna give mars the cheque for the national age group. lol. and charlene returned me my cds today. and nat borrowed my good morning revival.. haha.

hmmmmm. okkk. i think thats about it. i'll stop here thennn. BYES

cursed

2007-04-30T22:34:00.000+08:00

today i got so cursed so badly ...

if u hadn't seen.. i had mentioned that we were choosing the doubles? yeah. so we decided to draw lots. asked fann to pick. 3 times in a row was to pair joanna and charlene. i'm sure u know what that means...

after that. asked so many ppl draw. yes. ended up the same result. recess. asked shanice. she was like. pairing me and jo up. lol. but then they would die. as in. yeah. they. hmms. then asked her to draw lots. ended up the same result as all the rest..

and today. 8 ppl were absent. 2 ppl went home.. almost 10 ppl were sick in class. mann.. stupid sickness!

oh yeah. today was super slack!. like.ms cheong didn't come. mrs quek didn't teach cuz so many ppl were absent.. ms chan just gave homework.. anddd. yeah. super slack. lol

hmmmmmm. yes. now. the exciting part.. BOWLING. xD

actually nothing much.. today everyone sucked badly . not kidding.. the best was still nat. FOUL. FOUL. FOUL. =X [hope i dont die]

well. charlene seemed more sick. sooo pale larhs. jo was also kinda sick. blehs..

andddd. uhs. fann was sick. and she had to take her pills again. and she still has that problem of swallowin it...

and jean is in need of bodyguards. if you would like to be one, please tell her directly.. LOL

hmmmmmmmmmmm. I THINK THATS ALL.. oh yes. i forgot.. aiya. i'm lazy. i'll post the picture mr sim took of fann and my salt crystals...

hmms.. BYE

walking away

2007-04-29T18:10:00.000+08:00

I'm walking away from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away to find a better day
I'm walking away

Sometimes some people get me wrong
When it's something I've said or done
Sometimes you feel there is no fun
That's why you turn and run

But now I truly realise
Some people don't wanna compromise

Well,
I saw them with my own eyes spreading those lies
And well
I don't wanna live my life too many sleepless nights
Not mentioning the fights i'm sorry to say

I'm walking away from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away to find a better day
I'm walking away

Well I'm so tired
Things you say
you're driving me away
Whispers in the powder room
Don't listen to the games they play

I thought you'd realise
I'm not like them other guys
Cause I saw them with my own eyes
You should've been more wise

And well,
I don't wanna live my life too many sleepless nights
Not mentioning the fights
I'm sorry to say lady

I'm walking away from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away to find a better day
I'm walking away

seriously tired ..

2007-04-29T16:23:00.000+08:00

okkk. u know. i'm really tired..

last night talked to jean on the phone till 1+AM.. yes i know its late. then i woke up so freaking early. like..... 6+. almost 7 for church service. it was combined service. they had some.. somee... somee congregational meeting thingy..

so anyway. yesterday.. umm. nothing much happened. oh yes. i talked to joanna on the phone. surprising ehs? hahahaha. then i called charlene. then conference call. then jo accidentally hung up. then charlene a while later was like.. "i wanna go [toilet/get water].. call u back later". and guess what. she disappeared and didn't call.

so anyway. i filled up the form for our national age group. all thats missing is nat's NRIC number and our doubles line-up.. goshhhh..

i spent the entire day yesterday making this maths test paper for him.. i used all those old questions which ms yan gave us. u know. all those mock papers.. and enrichment worksheets? hahahaha. i know i'm so evil. and i onli marked his first section. he did.. quite ok larhs. his exam coming and my mum keeps stressing the point that i must tutor him and he must do well?. pressure.

today in church helped out with charmaine edelweiss and deborah at jws. we didn't even do anything o_o.. then before that we had a secondary division do an item. we sang that song. Not I, but Christ.. it was nice. but we were only given the song sheet last minute. n we didn't even know what song it was until they announced it. hahahaha.

then during art today. jean larhs. so indecisive. i shan't say why..

then we completed our painting. hmms. i'll post it up when i've got the time. i was so bored i took a picture of my drawing. blehhhh.. and we're all not going for the trip to vivo.. whahahas. nat's first time not going for outdoor painting! hahahaha!.

hmmmmm. friday night i talked to charlene till about 1+AM. so u can see that i talk on the phone till really late at night everyday. well.. almost. [bad habits die hard]

lol. i know its just a wrong statement but u get the point..

during art i was so super super hyper. everyone thought i was CRAZY. wahahahahahahaha.. okk. i think i'll stop. LOL

and fann. cheer up. dont need to get so upset kays? (:

charlene.. hope u get better SOOON. cuz talking on the phone with u is seriously hard when u got "AHHH CHOOOO" every now and then. hahaha

hmmm. i think thats about it.. and i know i'm being SERIOUSLY irritating but i shall repeat myself again...

PLEASE CHECK THE CLASS BLOG AND REPLY TO FANN'S QUESTION POSTED LONG LONG LONG AGO!. INCASE U CANT FIND IT. THE QUESTION IS BASICALLY JUST ASKING WHAT SONGS U WOULD LIKE TO BE PUT ON THE BLOG. AS SIMPLE AS THAT.

now. before i get pissed off. i will stop here.

byesss!! xD

painnn

2007-04-27T20:42:00.000+08:00

u know what? my stomach hurts.. and its not cuz of napfa. but because i ate too much yesterday! ARGHHHH! STUPID PIZZA .. T_T

so.. today had chinese test. i think im gonna fail it or maybe a just pass.. haiz..

then after that i had science.. we did that seperation thing. and.. fann and i created the nicest salt crystals! HA!. mr sim said he'll take a picture of it and send it to us because we wanted it so badly.. and i told him to show it off to other classes. I BET HE DIDNT!

anyway.. during recess today. was talking about the national age group. was so funny. joanna, charlene, natasha and i were thinking of a group name. we thought of so many ridiculous things. then as there was a bookfair. we went there and were looking around at the book titles for 'inspiration' ... while charlene went to buy books.. and jo ended up buying memoirs of a geisha.. hahahaha..

i pointed out to jo and nat that the '60 cents for each' sign was on the piano.. so each piano was supposed to cost u 60 cents.. HAHAHAHA. then instead, they saw the fire extinguisher.. and saw the words KILL FIRE on it. so we were like.. that sounds nice.. why not let it be our group name?.. HAHAHAHAHA. and we still haven't decided our pairs for doubles..blehs.. jo says she wanna do with me. but if we do that.then nat and charlene would be like. so ke lian la. NO OFFENCE!

after recess was home econs. everyone was re-ironing their pencil case. hahahah. and we bleeched it. mine turned out the best in class. and the teacher was ms lin. she was asking if i was good in art.. and said if i do the sewing part correctly. then i'll get an A grade. wahhahahas!

so while sherine was helping fann bleech.. she accidentally splated some bleech over the table.. and she splated a dot on my uniform!!! ARGH.now there's this white patch there.. GAHHHHH.. well but its just a litte dot.. it isn't.. TOO.. bad..... .... .........

hahahahahas. like. i'm so freaking boreddddd.. and oh yeah....

EVERYONE FROM 1PERSEVERANCE.
PLEASE CHECK THE CLASS BLOG FOR UPDATES AND REPLY TO FANN'S LONG POSTED QUESTION. OTHERWISE THE MUSIC COLUMN WOULD BE LEFT THERE. UNLESS YOU DONT MIND ME PUTTING MUSIC THAT FANN AND I LIKE... SO YOU HAD BETTER REPLY!!!!!!

ok. i think i'm done with this post for today.. hmmmm... yeah. NO WAIT. IM NOT DONE. i have yet to type about last night.. hahahas..

ok. so last night i talked to charlene over the phone until.. uh.. about 11.30. we talked until we were so tired.. lol. we were talking about the rules and regulations.. and practically mostly about bowling and all. haha.. and if we attend the national age group, and if there's school, then we would get to skip school!

hahaha! ..

but no. i dont wanna have a big pile of work when i go back...

and charlene was sooo sick. and sneezing like crazy.. she said it was cuz of her class e-newsletter.. she was using the laptop in class. or something!. but there was a lot of dust and she started sneezing. she was sneezing so horribly. like every few seconds.. "AHHHH CHOOOOOOO!" .. so u get the point larhs. u ppl from co had better appreciate that.. geez.

hmm. i think i can stop now. oh wait...u know. fann's like. so paranoid.. so pissed.. because she cant play the high A note on the french horn.. haiz. she's so desperate to play the french horn instead of the trumpet.. u knoww. she's been talking about the french horn all day long!. hope she gets in .. =/

well. now i think i can stop.. no wait. i'm CERTAIN that i can stop now.. HAHAHAHA. okayyy. BYES!

hyper!!

2007-04-26T19:30:00.000+08:00

hyper! i know its weird.. that after having napfa.. and even after having bowling.. and even after running about the entire day.. i'm not tired.. but in fact.. I AM HYPER!

hahahahahahaha.. before i forget.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY RACHEL YEO!! xD

ok.. yesterday.. uhs.. i cant really remember about what happened much. but i remember finding natasha's handphone under my dad's car's seat.. hmm.. yeah.. and.. i cant remember! ARGH.

oh yeah. i think it was.. tuesday night... carolyn called me. LOL. and i couldn't recognise her voice.. i named so many people .. until i realised. how crazy she was. and i realised. that it could only mean one person.. HAHAHAHAHA.. and i never knew that she was more crazy over the phone than in class.

OH YEAH. u know. yesterday during science. we were playing .. ok. experimenting with the sulphur and the iron fillings.. hahahah. had fun playing with their magnetism. LOL.. then we also burnt the magnesium ribbon. was soooo bright larhs!. as u know. fann is scared of lighting the match. so i had to do it. mann. and we also burnt the mixture of sulphur and iron filings .. it turned all .. blacky blacky.. LOL

so today was raining in the morning... then on my way to class.. while dragging my bowling bag that is... i met charlene, joanna, christine, teen zhen and vanessa.. they were bringing their bags to the locker room. and charlene was like "come come. put it in the locker room" .. "but i wanna put my bag in class first la".. "aiya. nevermind lar.. just come. just come. "... you get the picture..

so we stayed there looking at.. uhs. i cant remember. i think it was the pe notice board? then we walked back. and saw nat walking towards the locker room.. in other words. towards us .. so then i passed her her handphone then continued walking. barely walking 10 metres later... running foot steps could be heard.. guess who it was?

YES UR SO SMART!

ITS NAT.

yeah i know that was unnecessary and that it was lame but who cares?! .. so yeah. then we walk walk walk .. until we reached class.. then in class.. we didn't say the pledge. so when fann and i were about to leave class for art of speech [first lesson] .. then we stood there and just said the pledge before quickly leaving ..

oh yeah. before that. in class. there were some girls from 1co.. they came and asked "can we move your newspapers somewhere else? because our stack is much more and we got no space. your stack is so little. it doesn't matter" .. OMG LARH. SO INSULTING!!

ugh..

today in class..i was laughing like a maniac. i was seriously crazy.. laughing for no reason. just kept laughing and laughing!! .. i laughed until i cried.. LOL.. i made carolyn laugh too. and genevieve was soooo high too! and we were both laughing like MAD PEOPLE. just that i'm worse la.

so during recess today. walked to the gym. wasn't open. walked to the hall. had people. so we decided to go to the imac lab.. wahahas.. we slacked. we initially wanted to go work out and practise for napfa. but we SLACKED.

then during geog today. was falling asleep. it was so boring and dry. man.. but the lesson after that was english.. so mrs quek was going through the vocab book. and she ended up talking about all her dogs. she's got 4.. they sound soooo cuteee!!

she said she might allow us to go to her house for a class party.. WOOT!

so after school went to the gym to do napfa sit ups.. i did 30 .. which was a borderline A.. haha.. so . uhs. 7 of us.. yeah. we went up to the hall to do the other 4 items.. after that. followed joanna and christine to jo's mum's car. she fetched us to singapore poly again.

on our way out of the gate. we saw our senior! we asked her if she wanted a ride. so she agreed and hopped on. haha. then once we reached sp... at the round-about.. we saw the car infront of us.. if u were smart enough. u would be able to guess who.. we took quite some time unloading our bags off the car. so then christine was hungry and wanted to eat. so ordered seafood fried rice.. haha.

bowling was EXTREMELY FUN TODAY! man. it was so funny. and it was so fun. and it was so.. soo.. SO FUN. LOL. well. i wouldn't relate the entire story to u. but here's the outline.. we practised pin 10. i had to do 7 because i'm left handed.

then halfway through.. the other 5 sec1's [teen zhen, vanessa, stephanie, yuxian and justine]arrived... then they were on lane 3 and 4. on lane 5 and 6 were the sec3 and some sec2. lane 7 and 8 were the sec2. and lane 9 and 10 were the rest of the sec1. oh yeahs. there are only 10 lanes in sp.

so then uncle richard asked us to just hit pin 7 or 10 . then once we hit. we can sit down. otherwise we'll keep standing and going until we hit.. after we completed that. he added the pins infront one by one. soon enough. we were to hit the front 4 pins. then we were asked to play this game called 7 up..

well. most of u know 7 up as that game where u say all the numbers and u avoid numbers with 7 and the multiples of 7.. but in this case. it was to hit at least 7 pins.. haha.. it was simple. first. we would each send out one player to bowl. it'll be alternate turns within the 2 groups. then each time someone hits at least 7 pins. 1 would be added to 'the air' .. so then each time we hit lesser than 7 pins.. 1 point would be added. each time we go to the gutter. we would get 2 points. once u reach 7 points. u would lose.. and when u miss, whether lesser than 7 pins or gutter, we would have to add the points that are in 'the air' plus the points u get for missing..

so since i've explained the game. now i'll tell u what happened.. we played a total of 8 times.. the seniors won 6 - 2.. they're sec2 OK! o yeah. i forgot to say. um. lane 3 and 4 against lane 5 and 6. lane 7 and 8 against 9 and 10. so u got it?

then after that. we proceeded to playing a game. it was to key in only ONE player. that player represented the group. so we had to come up with a group name. then we would take turns playing one frame each. once the cycle is done. we would restart the line up again.

so we played and played. obviously we were gonna lose to the sec2. so we just aimed to improve each game. and guess what? we achieved it!

the seniors were like. strike strike spare. blah blah blah. and we were like.. much worse. well. we didn't lose out so badly on the next 2 games... we exercised good sportsmanship... and we also exerised good teamwork. xD

and i forgot to add.. I FOUND PEOPLE TO JOIN NATIONAL AGE GROUP BOWLING COMPETITION WITH ME!. u know larhs. joanna is of course volunteered the first! then. i asked charlene. she was like " i suck i suck larh. u sure or not? i'm so lan. duwan larh" .. LOL and guess what? GOT HER TO JOIN THE COMPETITON!! WOOOOOO!!!.. yeah. and also nat. hahahahs. mann. then like..

nat : i wanna join
me : join la
charlene : i'll join if nat joins
nat : i'll quit if charlene doesn't join
charlene : ok la! i'll join la!

LOL U GET THE POINT?!. well. not sure if its correct. but its about there la. hahahahaha

so now i'm at home.. sitting down. typing this for u to read. well.. i'm just so hyper!haahaha..

and u know. the science part. and the national age group competition thing. was added. just added. at 10.25pm.. lol. so u ight find it a little awkward. lols

still tired

2007-04-24T19:12:00.000+08:00

mann. i'm still so tired.. this morning i woke up at 6.. i smsed jean to remindher stuff.. haha..i went back to sleep and woke up at 6.30. then i realised i lost my thumbdrive somewhere!! then i searched for half an hour.. and i gave up..

then went to school... during chinese.. lao shi was like "bu zhi dao ni men shi bu shi bu xi huan hua wen.. hai shi ying wei hua wen shi di yi ke.. suo yi ni men dou hao xiang yao shui le" .. LOL.. cuz my class chinese is all first period .. so sad right?.. haha.

after chinese i had pe.. we ran 6 rounds around the hall.. lol. joanna and i sprinted it all. and i dunno why she ran an extra round but yeah.. after that we did the 5 static items... well.. practise..

then fann and i went back to class.. only to realise that i left my watch on the sit and reach thing.. argh. so since the following lesson would be music.. we just took all our stuff and went to the hall.. then to the imac lab.. haha..

during music .. the class video was so screwed up. the file was meant for windows media player.. and isn't compatible with mac.. T_T

after that it was recess. so fann and i went to change into blue uni for photo taking.. then helped teen zhen carry newspapers to gallery 1... then we went to the canteen. and ate mee pok. but we were late for photo taking .. ^^"

then after recess was.. art... our class has EIGHT representatives going for that evening by the pond thing for open house... GOOD RIGHT?!

hmm.. after art was history.. then it was.. uhs... i think it was end of school.. LOL.. yeah it is.

so went to eat in the canteen before the science UNSW started. and we were late.got scolded by a few teachers. well. almost half of the sec1s were late.. blehs..

found the science .. ok larhs. most of the questions were easy.. haha..

then after that went home.. then rushed for guitar class. and my bro tagged along. and i bought good charlotte's good morning revival and avril's the best damn thing.. wahhhasss... then we missed 3 mrts.. cuz it was all so freaking full.. then when we finally got onto one. we went to the bus stop after dropping off. then 171 was full.. they didn't even STOP.. geez. then we waited.. second one was also full.. finaly we got onto the third one. and it was SO LATE. it was almost 6.30pm!!! got so mad. -.-

so.. here i am. sitting down.. after such a tiring day. reflecting on how i should have a chauffer to avoid being so tired.. haiz.. LOL LOL LOL

tired

2007-04-23T22:49:00.000+08:00

im so extremely tired today man..

during bowling today was so crappy. i bowled so horribly.so horrible that even charlene got higher than me.

yuxian, stephanie, charlene, nat and i stayed back to bowl one more game each.. and i did so terribly.. T_T

today we were supposed to play 3 games of trial roll off.. but we only managed to play 1 and a half.. because we and 9 ppl. [justine and deborah went for ACM] .. so then for the first and only complete game. i got second highest. haha..

but then i played like shit after that.

well. enough of my crappy bowling... oh yeah. i realised that charlene and nat take a LONG TIME to buy things.. u know we went to great world to buy food. then we were the first there.. but we went back the LAST.. amazing isn't it? haha..

o yeah. i forgot to mention that today i took a cab with charlene and nat to kim seng . LOL. i dunno why but i had to mention that. and my dad sent charlene to the hwa chong bus stop after bowling. and nat followed me home where she walked out to .. i dunno where she walked to la..

OH YES. I'VE JUST COMPLETED THE CLASS VIDEO... im gonna save it on my thumbdrive and ask mrs goh tmr during music if im allowed to play it for everyone to see..

hm.. bowling was pretty peaceful.. *hint*hint*

anyway.. in the car on the way back from bowling. charlene nat and i talked so much crap. nat and i kept... hi-fiving.. if thats how u call it.. but u get the point. and i realised that my chinese isn't the only horrible one.. LOL

and today during assembly i had to act as the.. customer.. in the story of memoirs of the geisha. like.. ew larhs. it was so last minute ok. felicia and cheryl were like "go act la .. go act!" .. i was like. act what?. then only when we went out to practise before our turn. i realised.. ARGH. doesn't matter larhs. i did an easy part. which is to just sit there. LOL

hmm.. i also found out that ms chan has the same hanyu pinyin chinese name as jean.haha.. oh yes. the teacher taking me for parent teacher dialogue is ms chan..haha.. okk..

i think thats about it.. the summary of my day... oh yeah.. i've got napfa on thursday. and after that i still have bowling.. well i wanna go bowling but i'd be so tired then.. who cares. xD

and tmr there's pe.. heard that for pe tmr we're running 2.4km. blehs. like.. who bothers to ... so tiring one... oh.. today during recess. followed fann to go to the hall.. we wanted to practise the 5 items initially. but then the items were removed. so we went to the gym. it was locked. so then we were about to head to the canteen where we met mrs bowness. she said she'll unlock the gym for us. haha.. so then we worked out for about 10 minutes before running to the canteen and eating. and in the canteen. we met shanice,charlene,deborah,nat and.. i cant remember. but i think thats all. so yeah..

hmm. i think thats about it. like. REALLY REALLY end of it.. haha. i'll stop before i make this post EXTREMELY LONG. which of cause.. it already is. HAHA